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Started the Process

Last night I attended Dr. Naaman’s weight loss seminar. My supportive friend, Melissa went with me. When she had her surgery, they didn’t have the seminar. She even walked away learning something, she said.

All I can say is, "I'm sold!" without even being "sold" to.

It is plainly obvious to me that Dr. Naaman and his staff are the real deal; they're there to truly help. And true, it doesn't hurt that Dr. Naaman is noted as one of the top surgeons in the Nation for Laparoscopic RNY, but if he was a butt-head, or doctor advertising on the nearestbulletin-board, I wouldn’t be interested. I’m told some people find him direct. I find him to the point, and there’s a difference, to me anyway. Why mince words when we're talking about a life-altering procedure? This ain’t no time to be foolin’ ‘round!

I really liked how he impressed upon everyone the importance of aftercare. If I had a dollar for every time he stressed walking 30 minutes a day, maintenance, fol…

Another Day

So another day has passed, and I am either just a couple months or more than 365 days away from being able to have WLS.

I called Methodist Hospital yesterday, and am registered for their seminar on Thursday, February 2nd. I go to Dr. Naaman’s seminar on Monday, January 30th, and between all that, on February 1st I see my Endocrinologist for my blood work results.

The Methodist program could run me anywhere from $3800 to $4000. The good part is, it covers all areas of the required pre-certification; medically supervised, behavioral modification and support. The cost is higher, because you meet with an MD each week to have your progress clinically monitored.

Since I seem to be a woman of Pros and Cons lately, why not one more time!

Pros
Learn and practice the new lifestyle required after surgery
Learn how to cope with the emotional issues after WLS
Feel better each day, and feel “hope” because I am working towards something
Loss of weight will make WLS easier and slighter safer for the surgeon …

Insurance Obstacle Course

I've been trying to figure out exactly what my requirements are for BCBS-TX to cover my WLS. I definitely qualify on BMI, and my doctors agree it would be fine for me, however I'm not sure if my 4+ years of Weight Watchers books will count as a "medically supervised diet."

I called Dr. Naaman's office and spoke to Bernie. I asked her if she thought BCBS would take my 4+ years of Weight Watchers. She said it's fairly subjective to the reviewer on your case. Great! She said the best thing to do would be to call them and ask them what the requirements are.

So, I did.

Mary from BCBS was just as sweet as can be too; not at all what I was expecting with all the horror stories I've heard. I could tell she was really trying to find the information for me, but was having no luck. She said, if it were up to her 4+ years committed to anything should get me covered, but the case reviewers don't always see it that way.

I found some documentation on the provider websit…

She Makes The Call!

I had my appointment with my new PCP. We talked about everything; she's on board with me having weight loss surgery, and will support my effort towards getting insurance coverage.

We talked bout Xenecal and Meridia. She said Xenecal won't really do anything for me since I don't eat a high fat diet. Meridia is simply a Seritonin booster, like an anti-depressant. I don't want to be dependent for the rest of my life on pills. Especially as we age, pills are pretty much going to be necessary -- why throw something else in the mix?

I was very candid with her, telling her what my issues are, and being accountable for my behavior. Most of all though, I emphasized that in order for me to have long-term success and be the same person on the outside as I am on the inside, I need help.

Make no mistake, I am not thinking weight loss surgery is going to solve every unwanted issue in my life. Clearly I need an MD to help me overcome my emotional issues with food. With the help, I know …

Abra-ca-dabra! NOT!

As silly as it sounds, the Weight Loss Surgery for Dummies book has been a tremendous help in my decision making The following is an excerpt from Weight Los Surgery for Dummies:

"Weight loss surgery is in the news almost daily. You may hear everything from glowing reports of saved lives to horror stories about surgeries gone wrong. No doubt you know people who have had the surgery or you know someone who knows someone who has had the surgery. And like the game of gossip, reports get distorted. Here are some myths about weight loss surgery that you may have heard — and that are ripe for righting

You'll never regain your weight:
Weight loss surgery is only a tool — the amount of weight you lose and how much of that weight loss you maintain is up to you. Most patients do regain some weight — some as much as a 20 to 30 percent, and others even more than that. When you go through weight loss surgery, you have no guarantees that you'll be thin your entire life. But if you eat a…

Just The Facts, Ma'am...

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As everyone's goals are personal, I've done my best to research those facts which are important to me, and success with obtaining my goal.

My goals: a) Get the weight off, and start a full, active life, before I have suffer from co-morbidities or other unrelated issues. b) Get the weight off before my daughter is cognisent my weight struggles. I want to be a role model for her, demonstrating the importance of living a healthy lifestyle. I DO NOT want her to think that her weight should be the all-consuming battle it has been for me for the past 20+ years. Both surgies have associated risks, and I'd be happiest never experiencing them. However, I'd be remiss if I did not make them known.

It's All About Attitude

Attitude
Wynonna Judd

I've been up an' down, sideways, crossways,
Outside in an' inside out.
I took a rocky ride across the sky,
Couple times, till the fire burned out.
Well, I hit the ground a time or two,
But I got back up an' I found the truth.

An' said: "Hey, ol' Wynonna got somethin' to say."
Oh, whoa, you know I know what I'm talkin' about.
There's two ways to take what this ol' life's gonna throw at you:
You can choose to win or lose:
It's all about attitude, yeah.

Well, this world has tried to break me, shake me:
Tried to take the fight outta me, ha ha.
But I've always come back bigger, badder, better,
Always land on my feet, ha, that's right.
Well, I coulda given up, coulda got down, down, down, down.
Well, I kept on swingin' an' I went another round.

Hey, ol' Wynonna got somethin' to say.
Oh, whoa, you know I know what I'm talkin' about.
There's two ways to take what this ol' life's gonna th…

Lean On Me

What did people do before there were online support groups? I mean it,seriously! I have met so many motivating and inspirational people, that I contribute a lot of the success I did have to them.

If it weren't for meeting 1 friend in particular, I would not have done a triathlon! Okay, so maybe some friends are best unmade -- unless you enjoy that kind of punishment, as I do. LOL

Truly, though, I have made so many online friends via Weight Watchers online, and have been blessed that some of those online relationships carried over to real-life, and for that I'm grateful beyond words.

One of my best friends, Melissa, underwent Gastric Bypass surgery in December of 2005 -- she has made an amazing transformation, and is truly a poster-child for Dr. Naaman -- and I mean that in the most positive way possible!

Since I finally "came out", so to speak, and told her what I was contemplating, she's been awesome! She's arming me with knowledge, almost daily, so I make the b…

"...step-by-step", he said...

You know, when I did the Danskin Triathlon, Sally (the Danskin spokesperson) said "The hardest part of the race is not crossing the Finish line, it's getting to the Start line." That quote can be used in so many aspects of life, and this is no exception.

I managed to work myself up into a terrible frenzy on the drive to the Endocrinologist. First, I was worried he'd have something to say about the fact I'm only 10 lbs lighter than the very week I delivered Cassie. Of course being the way that I am, I hate disappointing anyone -- one of the reasons I think Weight Watchers worked for me is that I had to be, or felt, accountable to that person weighing me on the scale each week.

Of course he was concerned about my weight and we talked about the life changes required and the how I impulsively eat when I am emotional and stressed. I explained it's not even like I gorge on a bag of cookies, or pint of ice cream. More often than not, I'm over eating on "healt…

Mind Rush

Ever since the day I decided to do this, I go through what I call "mind rushes" -- I can't seem to stay focused on much else, and thoughts of going through WLS, pre-of and post-of, literally rush through my mind; there are already two nights where I got little sleep because I was dwelling on these thoughts...

- What if I choose the wrong procedure?
- What if the procedure doesn't yield a useful tool for me?
- What if something goes wrong, and the worst happens?
- What if I suffer complications after whatever procedure I choose?
- What if I never feel full?
- How will my Mother take the news?
- How much will my family suffer during my recovery?

Today I go see my Endocrinologist. I'm a little nervous. I had hoped to be closer to my pre-pregnancy weight before returning to him. I can't play games though; I don't have time. I have to get the ball rolling in some direction.

While I was pregnant he suggested Meridia might help me later on; that I'd be a good candida…

"Heavy History"

A little about my 'heavy' history...

I've had weight issues the majority of my life, pretty much since puberty. Growing up in a family of professional dancers, weight was a constant source of strife between my Mother and me. She'd put me on diets, try to motivate me with money, or take away the things I enjoyed, or enjoyed doing. In her mind, nothing really seemed to work. In my mind I just grew more resentful feeling the repercussions of my weigh loss failure.

That being said, I do have remember being 14 years old and a size 12, but I also remember living on tuna, yogurt, grapefruit and salad. What’s really said is, I don't ever remember see a thinner me. I often think, "Only if I had, would things be different now?"

Gosh, was my self-image that bad?

So in my adult life I remember being well into the 200's, thinking, "I never want to see that 3XX number". Well, you know how self-fulfilling prophecies work right? If you think your fat, and call …

Coming to Terms

Hello new blog. :)

I'm Donna. Since I will be getting very intimate with you in future, I should explain what has prompted me to find a new place to journal...

It's the third week of the new year and I have finally come to terms with the idea of having weight loss surgery. Over the years I have had very mixed feelings about it. And while I thought it extreme and not the best method for me, I always supported my friends on their journey.

I can already tell this is going to be a powerful and emotional journey. I mean, from the very day I decided to consider it! In a way I almost feel like a failure to my body and as a role model to others. Today I was discussing it with my husband, and the realization that I need help brought me to tears.

I have yet to decide what kind of surgery. I want to keep my mind open and do what's right for me, though I'm leaning towards the lap band. I have known people who have experienced the glory of success with both the Lap Band and RNY, and th…