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Holiday Hustle

Back to the grind at work today, but I have absolutely no focus. Mom's visit was great! Friday's trip to Palestine, TX to ride the Polar Express was fantastic and worth every second of the 6 hours it took (round-trip) to get there and back. My eyes well-ed up with tears when my Daughter was just so excited she could hardly contain herself. Pictures will follow.

I'm good. Family is great. Will update with pictures later.

Happy holidays friends!


First off, I want to note a new product: IDS Multi Pro Whey Isolate Protein Vanilla Cinnamon. I've always had a problem eating first thing in the morning, but I think I found something that will work for me. This Cinnamon Vanilla flavor is awesome, and I actually mixed a scoop of it with my coffee this morning, instead of creamer, and it was surprisingly good. One of my other faves has been adding protein to her coffee for a while, but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. I'm glad I did! It mixes easily too. It was almost (not quite) like a cinnamon dolce latte from 'Bucks. It's whey protein isolate, the easiest to digest, so a good product for us post-ops -- that is if you're into protein. It's sweetened with Sucralose (Splenda).

Yesterday I had a training session and all the odds were against me. I got there late and after talking about my nutrition, we had less than 30 minutes. We only did 2 exercise, but after looking at the calories burned on my hear…

Friday's Beating

Press and Curl Circuit (1 minute recovery between sets):
Dumbell overhead press 15 lbs. x 15
Barbell curl-to-overhead press 20 lbs. x 15
Barbell bicep curl 30lbs. x 15

Dumbell overhead press 15 lbs. x 15
Barbell curl-to-overhead press 20 lbs. x 15
Barbell bicep curl 30lbs. x 15

Dumbell overhead press 10 lbs. x 15
Barbell clean-and-press 20 lbs. x 15
Barbell bicep curl 20lbs. x 15

Lat and Tricep Ciruite (45 seconds recovery):
Lat Pull-down 70 lbs. x 15
Tricep Pull-down 40 lbs. x15

Lat Pull-down 90 lbs. x 15
Tricep Pull-down 40 lbs. x15

Lat Pull-down 100 lbs. x 12
Tricep Pull-down 40 lbs. x12

Chest/Lunge/Squat Circuit (45 seconds recovery):
barbell chest press (no plates) 55 lbs. x 15
20 push-ups

barbell chest press (no plates) 55 lbs. x 15
15 push-ups

barbell chest press (no plates) 55 lbs. x 10
10 push-ups

Lunge/Squat Circuit (30 seconds recovery):
Traveling lunges w/ 35 lb. ball 20 x2
Side-step traveling squates w/ 35 lbs. ball 20 x2

Traveling lunges w/ 35 lb. ball 20 x2
Side-step traveling squates w/ 35 lbs. b…

Training Session - Tuesday

Leg Press / Lunge Circuit
20 reps - Leg Press - no plates (both legs)
15 reps - Leg Press - 100 lbs. right leg only
15 reps - Leg Press - 100 lbs. left leg only

Traveling Lunges 2 x 20

15 reps - Leg Press 145 lbs. right leg only
15 reps - Leg Press 145 lbs. left leg only

Traveling Lunges 2 x 20 (w/2 25 lb. weights)

12 reps - Leg Press 190 lbs. right leg only
12 reps - Leg Press 190 lbs. left leg only

Stationery Lunges 20 (w/35 lb. weights)

Squat Circuit
I'm not sure what to call this one type of squat, but my trainer has me stand on a stack of 5 weights (under each foot) on the side of a bench and squat until my butt touches the bench and come right back up (no sitting on the job). I'll call them elevated bench squats.

Then we also do the same kind of squat, on one leg, not elevated. I'll call those single leg squats. I've always considered myself a good squatter, but damn, these are more than just squatting. It was a challenge just to squeak out 10 of them. Humbling to say t…

Empower by Choice

So I was reading this e-zine article by an RD who seems to write things that really resonate with me. She's not just an RD, she's also an emotional healer -- getting to the root of the problem. Long before I ever had RNY, I was following her articles, and more often than not drew some kind of motivation from them. It is like they bring me to place, even if just for a moment, where I am really ready to heal.

Today I still read her articles, and one of them in particular hit me the other day. She talks about "should" statements, and how they create self-loathing and hatred.

"I should be eating healthy."
"I should be doing this..."
"I should be doing that..."
"I should be exercising more."

It works with everything -- it doesn't even have to be weight loss related.

These "should" statements imply there are a set of rules that make demands how your behavior, choices, or actions are supposed to be; not necessarily rules y…


I'm excited. I train today. :) To that end, I'm trying to bump-up my calories to fuel my activity.

Early AM
1 hard boiled egg

6 oz. Fage FF Yogurt
1/2 C. Blueberries
1/4 C. Organic Granola

Mid Morning
Snackin' Flax
Hard Boiled Egg

Lean Cuisine Panini

Mid Afternoon
4 oz. 2% Cottage Cheese
1 C. Grapes

Evening (this is my plan, but I'm working late -- might be leftover soup instead)
6 oz. Sweet Sue Chicken Breast
Steamed Broccoli

So I met with Freddy. After talking for about an hour, he's pretty much the way I perceived him to be. You can tell he knows his stuff, and it seems he might be more knowledgeable in the are of nutrition vs. my former trainer. He's going to let me do my thing for a couple weeks then review my food log, and adjust from there. He already knows there will be a challenge with calorie consumption, but he's ready for it.

My goals (as we outlined them):

- Get below 200 by March 1 (doable, if my body would cooperate!)
- Maintain and build (NOT LOSE) Lean muscle mass/strength
- Improve overall endurance
- Add focus on muscle groups used for swimming (for the Disney Tri)

He's a tough trainer and admits it. He said the only recovery we'll get in the hour we train is walking from one station to another. He said, "You can grunt and groan all you want as long as you do what I say." "I'll smile and laugh because I know I'm doing my job."

I like his app…

New Trainer

Kinda psyched; I start with a new trainer today. I think I mentioned my former trainer has left my gym. I hate that he did because he "got" me. Now I'll have to break someone else in to believing I'm not some soccer Mom just looking to firm up my buttocks.

Before Jimmy left, he tagged two of the master trainers for me. 1 of them has just been promoted to Manager, so for obvious reasons can't accept any new clients right now. The other, Freddy, is the one I really want anyway. He's built like a brick shit-house and I've seen him train others. I like what I see.

My husband casually introduced himself to Freddy the other day. Freddy told him that "your wife probably won't like me the first few sessions." Hmph! I'm not sure he understands how I am yet. I want the challenge, so bring it on!

Will let you know how it goes :)

All dressed up with Somewhere to go!

Darren and I went to my company's holiday dinner last night -- we both got a little dressed up :)
And just for comparison's sake: Me today and Me 13 months ago...
First, I just want to say thanks, but I have to credit one of my favorite bloggers for really giving me the courage to really own my truths -- and if someone else can learn from what I'm going through, then I guess that's the real silver lining. It's just daunting trying to point out and recognize your own shortcomings.

I tell myself all the time, that it is a process. If I can keep myself from being on the next episode of Oprah featuring WLS post-ops with transference issues, that would be a good thing! :)

In the last 8 years of really dealing with my weight, I've been nothing short of tenacious. Yes, there are those cyclical times where I just had enough of what seemed like trying-for-nothing, only to find motivation in sometimes the smallest of things -- but at least it is found, and have always stood back up. Failure is not an option here.

As hoakie as it sounds, I know I just need to stay in that place in my head where I can actually believe that I care about myself …

Today's Plan

After work, I'm off to the gym for strength training and cardio.

Early Morning (13 g. Protein)
2 oz. Boar's Head Turkey (no skin)

Breakfast: (28 g. Protein)
Venti Nonfat Latte
4 oz. Fage FF Yogurt
1/4 C. Pumpkin

AM Snack (10 g. Protein):
4 oz. 2% Cottage Cheese
1/2 Apple

Lunch (18 g. Protein):
1 c. Raw Spinach
1/2 C. Grape Tomatoes
1/2 C. Diced Mozzarella
Balsamic vinegar

PM Snack (5 g.. Protein):
2 Wasa Multi Grain Crackers
2 T. Whipped Cream Cheese

Dinner (5g. Protein)
Asian Chicken Breast w/Broccoli

Time for Some Truth

I have been struggling some lately, and I need to come clean.

I have noticed some possible transferrence issues. They all seem to revolve around the fact that I haven't lost a large number of pounds... in fact, it's hitting me harder than I care to admit - but I have to, before it turns into something worse.

So here's the deal. When the scale doesn't drop, the one way I found to make me feel good (since I can't eat!) is to buy new clothing. In the last three months, when I've been feeling most down about my perceived lack of achievement, and have spent waaaay more than I should have. It all came to light reviewing our family budget -- in fact I didn't even realize it. It was hard to see in black and white; there was no denying it.

Now it's not like our house is going into foreclosure or our cars repossesd, but I've probably spent more than $2K in the last 3 to 4 months -- that's not good.

The good thing is that I see it, and I've identified the …

On Family...

Our "Black Friday" was spent at the Christmas tree Farm... 47 degrees in Houston actually made it good tree huntin' weather! :) Cassie having some fun hiding in the trees...

Me and Daddy on Thanksgiving...

Sophie So Divine

One of my best friends became a Mom for the first-time! After many years of trying to have a baby, she was blessed with the arrival of....

Sophia Danielle
6 lbs., 10 oz.
18.25" long

Mom and baby are doing wonderfully!

A Year Ago

I can't believe how the time has just flown.

This time last year I was laying on in the hospital, getting ready to say "night-night" for my 8am surgery to begin.

Later today, will be 1 year since I took the first steps out of my hospital bed and put myself on the path to better health. At the same time, one year later, I'll be enjoying a Turkey Day party at my Daughter's daycare, because I won't be secretly embarrassed to be seen by the other parents.

I have my health back, better self-esteem and am able to live my life more closely to how I've always envisioned I should be living it. To no longer be plagued by pain, physical challenges, needing to use the C-Pap or being Diabetic, is plenty enough to be thankful for.

Never mind mentioning (but I will anyway) that I no longer have to pretend with everyone my weight didn't bother or limit me. And while I am an over-achiever by nature (because I always had to work harder to prove myself in light of my obesit…

2nd day of Life at 40 :)

Clearly, my co-workers had very little to do while I was out... I arrived this morning to find this on my office window and door....

Vegas Baby!

Vegas was great. The Canyon Ranch spa was ridiculously overpriced, but every second was worth it. It was nice to be pampered. Here are just a few pictures from the trip.

Beth, Jenn and Me at Tao, Las Vegas
View of Tao from Mezzanine
(check out the size of it, relative to the people eating around it)

Uh, here we are again... still at Tao

Just me...

Happy Halloween!

"I'm hot... you're not."
Introducing the "Prison Princess"
(who is named after a a city in Frnace and a large hotel chain)

We had a costume day in celebration of Halloween. Please note my details: "diamond" Chanel earrings, super-swank-bling-bling sunglasses, and the obligatory doggie-in-a-purse. Oh! and my un-designer prison jumpsuit. :)
Well, the countdown for the "40 and Fab" tour is T-4 days. I leave at 7:15 am on Friday morning for Vegas. Should be tons of fun, a weekend with the girls.

Things were pretty hectic these last few weeks. Darren has been traveling, and when he's not been traveling I've been getting things... if it's not one thing, it's another. After Vegas though that's it! Just the regular holiday bustle, which is more than enough. .

This past weekend I co-hosted a baby shower for one of my best friends. Melissa is due early December. She's a diva, in the so-much-of-a-girly-girl sense, and we expect that she'll teach Sophia Danielle to be the same. The shower's theme was a leopard/animal print and Hello Kitty Mix.

I tried my hand at making a diaper cake. Yes, you read it right. A cake made of Diapers. I actually came out great!

Here is a pic of me and the Mommy-to-Be... She's glowing! I told you I'd get a picture in there somewhere!



"You can search throughout the entire universe for someone who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that person is not to be found anywhere. You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe deserve your love and affection." ~ Buddha ~

"There is a voice inside which speaks and says: “This is the real me!”
~ William James ~ (1842-1910) American philosopher and psychologist

What a Difference a Year Makes

It's been 1 year since I started with my trainer -- and next month will be my 1 year anniversary of my surgery. Admittedly I am a little embarassed to post this progress update because I, well, just havent lost as much as others! That being said, I haven't gone one month without losing inches somewhere; I've gone from a size 26 to a 16 -- and can even wear 18's in the Misses Department! I no longer take Diabetes Meds and no longer need to use a C-Pap machine!

My high weight was 347 lbs. My Pre-op weight was 307. This brings my total weight loss to 123 lbs., 84 of it from surgery.

I work extremely hard and do the right thing. Inevitably someone will think, "she's slackin'", which is the farthest from the truth. The thought of that makes me sick, probably because I've spent my entire life proving that I'm a hard worker, in spite of others' perceptions, that sometimes I feel like I just continue that behavior. It needs to change. I know. This i…

SignGurl and I Will Conquer Candy Corn!

I haven't had one niblet... and won't!


My abs are killing me today. Jimmy took and pounded my tranverse abdominal muscle to death! He said if I have 1 weak muscle, it's this one... and not to worry, "because after today it will never hurt as much again."

"The transverse abdominal muscle is the deepest of the 6 abdominal muscles. It extends between the ribs and the hips. The transverse abdominal muscle wraps around the center of the trunk from front to back; therefore, it contains and supports the organs located there. The fibers of this muscle run horizontally, just like a back support belt would be worn.The transverse abdominal muscle is a breathing muscle, assisting the exhalation by bringing the bottom of the ribcage closer to the spine, which forces air out of the lungs.The transverse abdominal muscle provides stability to the trunk and the organs located there. It also provides stability to the trunk during lateral flexion.
In the front the transverse abdominal muscle attaches to the linea alba. The l…
I am feeling bummed -- I am having my last training session with Jimmy today, but excited at the opportunity to train with one of the master trainers. :) I don't know what my training session will entail today, but I do know I'll be running afterwards.

One of my associates is serves in the Air Force reserves. She's 55 and has to take her annual PT test. She shared with me the components and scoring for the test along with the goals. So, my new goal is to run 1.5 miles in less than 12 minutes, 30 seconds. I can do 1 mile in under 15 minutes now, but adding another half mile with less time will be a challenge. Something to shoot for, I guess.

The smarty pants that she is, she printed out the 34 - 39 age chart... 30 seconds later she said, "this is only good for a few more weeks *laugh*." "Here's what you'll need next" as she handed me the 40+ chart! :) I chuckled.

I didn't feel this good back in my twentie -- so the whole turning 40 th…
Yesterday's workout was great. I modified it slightly, replacing prisoner squats with bent-over 17.5 dumbbell rows, eliminated the ball crunches, but increased my hanging knee raises to 12 per set.

Today will be strictly cardio in the form of running. My goal is to run 1.5 miles in under 12:30 -- if it's good enough goal for our military, it's good enough for me! :)

Today's meal breakdown -- Ireally need to work harder on getting more fiber in. I think the recommended requirement is 35 grams a day!...

Overall, I'm pleased that I manage to get my protein from food, and rarely rely on protein shakes and protein bars. Some of my favorite proteins are lowfat cheeses, 2% cottage cheese, turkey breast, smoked salmon and tuna. Of course when I want some protein and good fat, I opt for some natural peanut butter.

Today's Plan

So today is a day unsupervised training. Here's the plan, taking into account I will not try to do as much weight as I do when my trainer is with me.

I have one more session with Jimmy on Thursday, then he is gone. *sniff* He promised to write down a couple of routines I can follow until I am training regularly with Freddy or Brandon.

Cardio Warm-up - Treadmill 10 mins.
Lat Pull-down - 3 sets of 12 @ 70lbs.
1 Legged Single Lat Cable Row - 3 sets of 12 @ 40 lbs.
Prisoner Squats - 3 sets of 12
Leg Press- 3 sets of 12 @ 540 lbs.
Walking Lunges - 3 sets of 24
barbell Chest Press - 3 sets of 12 @ 75 lbs.
Dumbbell Chest Press - 3 sets of 12 with 17.5 weights
Hanging Knee Raises - 3 sets of 12
Ball Crunches - 3 sets of 12
Plank - 3 times @ 45 - 60 Seconds (to failure)
Spin ClassOR Running Intervals
-- Depends on energy level

I heard a great quote -- it's not like I didn't know this, but it's easy to remember when I feel tempted by something...

"The moment you eat sugar, you are no …
"So, what CAN you eat?"

I get asked that all the time. I still journal my food, albeit on an off, because it helps to control grazing. It also helps to see I am doing whats right -- even if I have to enter the *bad* stuff, which thankfully isn't very often. Although I do have a problem trying to figure out how to journal a couple bites of birthday cake, no icing. :)

So here's a typical day for me. I can actually get as high a 1500 calories, but that's reserved only for days where I know I'm training for something specific. While I do eat within the guidelines my surgeon provides, I do feel like I eat a ton of food, so I'd be curious to see what other post-ops are eating a year out.

Vitamins (2x a Day):
Flinstone's Complete Chewable Multi-vitamin w/Iron (Surgeon Recommended!)
2 - 3 Hours later: Calcium Citrate with Vitamin D & Magnesium
Fish Oil
Sublingual B-12

Morning (About 5:30 - 6:00 am):
2 - 3 Cups of Coffee w/FF Half-and-Half
3/4 C. Fa…
It's been extremely busy the last few weeks. Between my Daughter's birthday, Mom's visit, my nearly forgotten anniversary, the countless birthday parties for my Daughter's classmates, coupled with my husband traveling and overall craziness at work, everything seems to be getting away from me these days and I can't keep up... I just keep swimming, swimming, swimming and hope it will all pass.

I have been sick the last week with a sinus infection. Went to my doc, he gave me some meds, and finally I feel some relief. Ahhh!

I guess what prompted me to write is that yesterday I found out my trainer is leaving the gym. In fact, he's leaving personal training altogether (he says it, but I don't really beleive it.).

In any case, he's doing right by me (as I thought he would), and has been working with two awesome Trainers to get me into their schedules. It might take a few weeks, but I would rather wait and end-up with one of these guys than a Rookie trainer. I…

3 Years Ago this Month...

This very month, 3 years ago, one of the biggest reasons to have WLS arrived -- my Daughter, Cassie. It's been a wild ride learning to make time for me, take care of her and my family as a whole. Everyday I'm moving forward. Everyday I'm grateful I have the chance to "Lead" my life, instead of watch it pass me by.

Just for the sake of walking a few laps around memory lane, here's a video of Cassie's first three months. Just a warning, there is about 20 second of her birth-by-c-section. No blood, you just see them futzing around with my belly, then pulling her out -- it's freakin' crazy!

This is my Cass-a-frass today. I think the dancing is in the genes. if you don't know, my family (Mom, Step-dad and Sister) are all dancers. I have never forced dancing on her, but yet she seems to enjoy it! She's a kid... I guess that's reason enough. So, heeeeeerrrreee's Cassie!

Tour de Pink - Done!

The Tour De Pink is over. I completed it this morning. :) I'm glad I went and kept my comitment. My husband and daughter came for support. With 1 mile left it started to lightly rain. Here's a couple pics from before:

Then when I reached the finish line, the arch fell down. Seriously, my husband said it was fine for everyone else. LOL Luckily, he captured video

Retirement News

I just received the news that my bariatric surgeon, Dr. Naaman, is retiring in November. I'm happy that he's getting to retire and relax, but sad for those who will miss him and/or the opportunity to have him touch their lives.

I hate to sound sappy, but this guy, like many other bariatric surgeons, has change the lives of so many people. He's known for taking on the cases that other surgeons won't, so I know that those folks with special needs are really feeling the effects of the announcement.

Ironically his retirement will come the month of my 1 year post-op anniversary.

I'm going to offer to create one of those hard-cover memory books for him, containing pictures and letters from his patients. Hopefully it will serve as a reminder of how he impacted the lives of so many for the better.

- this title space for rent -

Today I will forgo a title Although, if inspired to do so, please feel free to submit one. :)

I really just have one thing to write about -- I finally got my effin butt in the pool last night. I got in the effin pool and swam laps for 30 minutes. The pool has been my biggest challenge in prepping for the triathlon. I kept putting it off, and putting it off. And you know, that's just not going to get me swimming!

Oddly enough, I enjoyed it and didn't feel near as clumsy as I expected I would -- which is good, because that means I'll go back for more.

For 30 minutes I just kept moving (well for the most part, until I had to share a lane) and focused on alternating sides for breathing. Anyone know anything about lap etiquette in the pool?

Just another challenge from the past, beaten. :)

9 Months!

I just realized that I'm 9 months out today, and just shy of 90 lbs. gone. I still feel as if it's the best thing I could have done for my self, my health and my family. Like Jenn said, I think "I'd do anything to keep from being fatter again." I just feel so damn good -- but I will feel even better down the road.

I still have so far to go, and feel like my falling short of the average 10 lbs. a month. I didn't lose much in the way of inches last month, so that was disheartening. That being said, someone commented just yesterday that I looked like I was losing weight, so there must be some re-arrangement going on.

My stitches finally came out yesterday, so I'm feeling sooooo much better. Today I'll be back at the gym -- I feel yucky after being "off" a week. LOL

Just a few short months until Vegas. I can't wait. We're booked for the Venetian, a spa package at Bellagio, and we've got tickets to see Jay Leno. As an added bon…

Bright Sparkles in Life

You know those people -- the kind that add a little *sparkle* to life. The kind that sparkle without even trying. They care. They're sincere. They're genuine. They're the kind of person you meet and think to yourself, "there's a part of me that wants to be like so-and-so."

Last night the Earth is one less sparkle. A former co-worker, Kayrene, finally lost her 13 year long fight to Cancer. And while she didn't have the opportunity to pass at home, she was surrounded by family and friends.

I try to focus on the fact that she had 13 more years to raise her kids and see them through their life events. She had 13 years to LIVE.

Kayrene's passing brings to mind 3 other close friend who also lost the fight, and I celebrate their memories in honor of Kayrene.

Jean, Glioblastoma
LaShanda, Stomach Cancer
Jan, Breast Cancer

Months before Shanda passed, she wrote this poem. She typed it on a card and gave it to me, telling me to "keep it near" always. It made…

Implants are Started!

Yesterday was my dental implant surgery and it went well. I got six altogether. Now I just have to wait 2 to 3 months to mke sure everything heals and grows into the bone. Next is the "uncovering" then I get the actual abuttments to recive the teeth! At that point I'll be seeking out a replacment of a filling and veneers on my top teeth. It would be nice to have my teeth completely done by my birthday bash in Vegas.

Right now I'm in a bit of pain. Nothing tht Hydrocodine doesn't take care of, but that stuff in itself makes me feel cruddy. I am "working from home" today.

I've been with my new job about 3 months now. My boss told me they're still thrilled to have me and gave me a big hug (it's nice, but I stil don't get the *hug* thing at work). She said she hoped I was just as happy there. I am :)

My Daugheter is practically potty-trained now (I know a random shift in topic), but it makes me happy.

Our new triathlong team training blog is up…

If I Could Do Anything...

Someone said, "If you could do anything you wanted for a living, what would it be?"

You know, I really don't know. How bad is that, not to know? Does that mean I'm indifferent to everything or am I just passionate about a lot of different things?

I always grew-up wanting to be a music teacher. I wanted to teach singing. I loved singing... in fact, as a kid you couldn't keep me from singing. I studied voice with profressional coaches on and off for more than 10 years. My Step-dad used to yell at me on car trips because I sang with the radio all the freakin' time!

In fact, when college rolled around I auditioned and received a partial scholarship to Westminster Choir College which I declined. Mom feared I could not make a living at music because of my weight. So I allowed her the power to talk me into doing somehing practical, studying something business related. Mom said,"... if you want to go back to music bad enough later, then you will." It sounded…

Got French?

Received my first foreign language message, but can't find a good translator; anyone know French? LOL


2007 Tour de France

The tour is over, and my D-boys did the job. Where they'll be next year, who knows? I still find it hard to believe that Discovery is rumored to be dropping out of the TdF after just a few years of sponsorship. What's the problem though? It only costs $15 mill to staff a team of Discovery's stature. :) The rumors so far have the best team members re-forming under a new team, so all won't be lost.

Contador did awesome and Leipheimer had the best ride of his career. I'm tired of folks saying, the only reason Contador won was because Rasmussen was allegedly doping. Regardless, doping creates a synthetic performance; Contador's performance was natural, thereby warranting him the true winner in every way. Enough said.

My boy George Hincapie, as usual, pulled his weight for the team this year, but I really would have like to see him have a stage win. Hopefully he'll get to experience that again one day.

It still baffles me that some of these guys think they …


Okay, last night I made my return to spin class. *applause*

I'm not sure I have mentioned just how great it feels to be able to do everything... but it does. It's simply amazing! Of course I have; silly me. Well, you'll have to hear it over, and over, and over again for a while!

I know I worked hard pre-op, but heck, any 300+ lb. person taking spin class does! This just feels different. It's like I can actually feel my body getting stronger. I did damn near every jump, hover run and sprint. For the first time back, that's pretty good.

I will say though, that after class I felt extremely weak, like I never had before. Luckily I was armed with a banana (a good glycemic replenishment), and I felt much better.

Tour de Pink, here I come! By the way, my new boss made a $100 donation! I was floored!!

I have been so fortunate in that I was able to seize the opportunity to have my life back. God, I'm so thankful for having the surgery.

Tonight I have a strength t…

A Couple Things!

Thanks to all my sassy sisters who helped make a contribution to my Tour de Pink efforts. You gals have character; you walk the walk AND talk the talk. I thankfully accept your donations in celebration of those who have lost the battle to Breast Cancer, and on behalf of all the folks who will benefit from this fundraising effort.

So, to change the subject, guess what I'm wearing today? I'm wearing a size 16! Not just a 16, but a 16 in white. White?!?! Yes, white. :) It's a nice black and white outfit, if I do say so myself. :) The point is, I haven't worn white since my wedding, and before than since my 8th grade graduation! Actually, I think I might be smaller now than I was at my 8th grade graduation!

Oh... and I have my consultation for my implants. Whoopie!

"Implants?" you say.

Yes, but not those kind. I'm talking about DENTAL implants. I started the process right before I got my RNY approval. I thought I'd have a year to finish up, but never even got…

Steppin' Out

This past weekend extremely busy, but fun too. :)

On Saturday morning I returned to my former gym and took Step Class. I really missed my old class and decided that if I really like it that much, and it helps to vary my cardio, it's worth the $47 a month. I absolutely adore the teacher. She's challenging, motivating and fun -- and yes, she's the reason I re-joined. The GroupX teachers at my 24 are pansies compared to her.

I just have to say, I HAD SO MUCH FUN! I hopped my way through step like I never did before. Don't get me wrong, my heart rate was hovering between 172 and 178 the whole time, but I felt so accomplished afterwards!

Funny story: a lot of the people at my local "Y" are teachers in CCISD. They all know one another. If you live the the Bay Area and aren't a teacher, then most likely you work for one of the DOD sub-contractors or at NASA. I work at neither so it took some time to make friends and penetrate what I lovingly call the "fitness …

2007 Tour de France

With all that's going on, I forgot to mention that the Tour de France started last week. They're already in Stage 9 today I believe. Thank goodness for Tivo, or I would never get caught up.

I'm all about rooting for team Discovery, but I am disheartened already. It's a long tour and I know anything is possible -- I'm just waiting for their attack. George Hincapie is my guy to root for. Probably won't win the Yellow, but I'd like to see him win a stage and see the team do well overall without the "Lance" factor.

I know they're focusing on the team time trials (which I always love to watch because that's where you really see the teamwork) and the stages in the Pyrenees.

Go Discovery!

Need Your Help!

Okay, I don't normally solicit anything, but I'm about to do so. I'm currently registered for the Tour de Pink. It's a cycling ride benefiting Breast Cancer. Without going into heart-wrenching stories, I have been touched by 3 women in my life who either died, beat or survived Breast Cancer. What I really need is your help in the form of a contribution to the cure. Please visit my contribution website sponsored by P3=Pedal Pink Power and Compass Bank.

Remember your donations are tax deductible. Your donation doesn't have to be huge -- every couple dollars helps! If you already contribute to another Breast Cancer organization, then thanks a million times over.

Feel free to pass the link to my contribution center on, if you know anyone who is open to the cause:

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There is a woman in my office who in the past struggled to have approval for the surgery -- ironically enough her name is Donna. She didn't know I had the surgery when she started telling me about her experience. I could soooo feel her disappointment. The whole conversation started because during some lunchtime chat I said, "I am no longer Diabetic." She wanted to know how, and my first response was, "I lost weight; I exercise and eat right." Which, of course, is true.

However I felt compelled to tell her the whole truth, but I had no doubt it would be kept in confidence. Sharing my story prompted some questions on her behalf and I could tell she feels some bit of hope... even if she has to self-pay.

It felt good to give her even just a little hope.

Yesterday I had my 6 month (late) post-op follow-up. All labs were fantastic and my weight loss is fine. I had brought with me my charts from my training session that track everything, and of course they explai…

Progress and Stuff

First thanks goes to JenO for her recommendation of PB2! I love this stuff, and have shared the good news with other fellow peanut butter lovers. :) Seriously, my trainer is diggin' on it, as well as members of my surgeon's support group! They're even giving it away as door prizes!

I've been watching Big Medicine, mostly because I know a couple of people profiled, since they film it here in Houston. Tesha was my roomie for the Austin event and I've met Ramon via the OH Texas Message Board gatherings. Both are most excellent people, and I'm so proud of them for sharing their stories. Incidentally, while at the conference someone asked me if I was Tesha's MOTHER! Holy sh*t! Do I look old enough to have a 25 year old daughter? Never mind, don't answer that!

Also on the Big Medicine link is a question and answer section by Dr. Mary Jo Rapini-- she has some great books listed for self-help issues with food addiction. I love her attitude towards accountability…

2007 OH Conference in Austin

This past weekend I had Hubby was nice enough to pull some extra "Daddy Duty" so that I could go attend the Obesity Help Conference in Austin. I love Austin, so I figured, if the conference was boring, at least I'd be in Austin -- a Win-win situation for me.

Luckily as it turned out, for the most part, the conference was pretty good (I do have some feedback for OH though). Lots of room for improvement, and rumor say that most conferences are 2 days, whereas Austin was just one. There were three things/people who really "hit" different spots for me. One was a post-op who described his story, the other was a Dr. MaryJo Rapini, a psychotherapist, and the emcee of the event Jackie Guerra. Of course props go to the others who were there donating their time, but I got the most from these three people.

With regard to my recent inner-conflict (or whatever the heck you call it) I decided I am going to get some help. There is that, as well as some other issues I have…


Here's me... beyond fat, and miserable... around 347 lbs. in 2000

Here's me today... Pretty damn happy!
(pictured with Jackie Guerra at the Austin OH Conference)
227 lbs.

Post-Op Head Games

So I have the surgery; my health is improved. Not only that, my confidence and general attitude are definitely better. Still a little shy, I think from some residual confidence issues, but overall so much better. I'm living my life now, instead of living vicariously through others. In fact, just last weekend I physically showed my daughter how to use a slip-n-slide! I have returned to school and I feel fantastic about LEADING my life.

I look in the mirror I see improvement. I don't see perfection, but that's OK because perfection is not what I'm looking for. I watch for changes that will motivate me. I take time to notice them and I enjoy wearing flattering clothes, the freedom of movement and every single "WOW" moment I experience. Those are the things that keep me going.

Here's where I seem to have a problem, and I know this is going to sound crazy... but I guess this is part of the post-op head game.

If I look in the mirror and I say, "Hey, y…

80 lbs. Gone!

This week I hit 80 lbs. lost. I do my best not to compare, but it seems others who had surgery the same month as me are losing way faster. I know I'm doing it all right; eating, exercising. I suppose I get somewhat envious when the weight just falls off others without very much effort or regard for the "rules" of post-op life. Also too, my stalls remind me of my weight loss efforts (failures) pre-op. I'm not even 7 months out yet... I still have at least 11 more until the mal-absorbtion period ends.

It seems I lose like 8 to 10 lbs. then nothing for like 4 to 6 weeks; it's so maddening. Even though I know better, I have to vent about it.

I started buying some 16's and can actually wear some of the XL's in the Misses department -- just that alone opens a whole new world for me!

As for the new job, it is excellent. Surprisingly it is turning out to be what I was looking for if I stayed in technology -- still in technology but not support (or at least a ton o…

6 Month Surgiversary!

Today is my 6 month Surgiversary. I'm down 73 lbs., and gee-zus, I've lost count of the inches. I was hoping to hit 8o lbs. down, but it wasn't in the cards for me. Big deal... check this out:

From 307 to 233

% Body Fat
From 54.1% to 39.4%

From 16.75" to 14.75" (down 2")

Upper Arm
From 18" to 14.33" (down 3.67)

From 48.5" to 43.25" (down 5.25")

From 54.25" to 41.5" (down 12.75")

From 59" to 51.25" (down 7.75")

From 28.75" to 25.25" (down 3.5")

From 19" to 17.25" (down 1.75")

I'm far from "Barbi", but down almost 35" accross my body feels damn good :)

"Live Your Best Life"

"It's my life.
It's now or never.
I ain't gonna live forever.
I just want to live while I'm alive."

Sometimes I think what the hell am I doing? I need to get a plan in place. I need to be doing what it is I am passionate about. I need to do what it is I think I will enjoy. I need to do something that makes a difference.

Why am I letting this opportunity to do something pass me by?

Because I'm not ready?

Because I didn't plan it?

Because I don't want my family to suffer because my focus is elsewhere.

Because I'm scared. All of the above, I'm sure.

Except there's this feeling nawing at me; I feel that as I lose weight my confidence rises. As my confidence rises, so does my optimism with regard to making a career change.

I want to do physical therapy. It's competitive, but there's no need to worry about that when I haven't even started. One step at a time. Right?

I see stories all the time about people who entered med school a…