Monday, December 22, 2008


This seems pretty cool... works with Twitter, Facebook, Nike+ and soon, Garmin.


Dailymile Brings Your Friends and Neighbors into Your Workouts [Exercise]
via Lifehacker by Kevin Purdy on 12/19/08

Free workout tracker Dailymile works fine as a logging and analysis tool for your running, cycling, or other cardio-oriented training, but its highlights are the ways it uses friends and locality to motivate.

It's a fairly new webapp, so don't expect to see many friends or fellow runners in your neck of the woods up just yet. But you can use Dailymile to connect your workout notes to Twitter (and, eventually, Facebook and other apps), and keep track of races and other events near you. If disappointing your exercise-focused friend is motivation enough to get you out the door, Dailymile is worth checking out. The site is a little AJAX-heavy, though, and left my Firefox browser chugging to keep up at some points, so don't expect a quick visit from a low-speed or mobile connection.

Dailymile is free to use, requires a sign-up.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

High Anxiety.

Things are just crazy, but I guess it comes with this time of year.

I've been really anxious lately. My guess it's a culmination of everything going on at work (no worries about job security), a general lack of sleep, trying to keep up with everything and NOT getting to the gym. I'm still waiting on my bloodwork results too.

You read that right. NOT getting to the gym. Ugh!

I just feel out of sorts. Mom is coming on Sunday and maybe that has something to do with it too. I'm looking forward to Saturday, as we're taking Cassie to Austin to right the North Pole Flyer Steam Trainride. It should be lots of fun. :)

Ho, Ho, How Many Times Can We Visit Santa???

Yet another Santa visit. This time he visited Cassie's Dance School :)

Monday, December 15, 2008

Nike Give 100% Promotion

"As part of their holiday promotion for the LIVESTRONG Collection, Nike teamed up with LAF supporters Evan Handler, Ben Harper, Elle Fanning, Susan Sarandon, Forrest Whitaker, Lisa Leslie, Hillary Duff, Julia Louis-Dreyfus, Dana Delany, Masi Oka, Mark Parker and Robin Roberts, to produce a holiday gift guide promoting that 100% of Nike’s profits, from this collection, go to the LAF.

As part of the Give 100% promotion, Nike is also sponsoring a contest where you can help us identify someone in your life who consistently gives 100%. Whether it’s fundraising, fighting cancer, or being an advocate in the community, tell us about that person for their chance to spend a day with one of the remarkable individuals listed above. You can also see some exclusive videos from the photo shoot."

Snipped from the LiveSTRONG Blog

Friday, December 12, 2008

Can't You Just Smell the Freshness???

Just becaue they came out soooo pretty and
smelled soooo good. :) I just had to share.
Of course just one lick of the damn icing
makes me all swooshy in the head.
Not. RNY. Friendly.
But the birthday girls loved them!

Let it Snow - H-town Style!

Snow! It's true!

The next morning, we let Cassie play
before she went to school -- she'd never seen it before!

For her, it was fun...

For a while... Until her little hands got cold.
The fun lasted all of 5 minutes.

Checkin' In with a Bullet List

  • I'm here... just insanely busy. Caught a Facebook virus from a stupid-ass app that I inadvertantly clicked, and just like that, I'm rebuilding my WORK laptop for 2.5 days. back to normal now.
  • Have some food porn... but the Gastric bypass FAIL kind -- for birthdays at work. I can smell, can't I?
  • Going to tackle making Gram's fruitcake. It's a freakin' old recipe. Makes 10 lbs. of batter-- if you're nice, you might get a brick 'o cheer.
  • Snow in Houston folks; it's true. I have pictures to prove it..
  • Working late tonight and tomorrow morning. :(
  • Getting hair done Saturday
  • Cassie has a birthday party Saturday
  • Darren and I get to go to my holiday dinner for work... kinda like a date. *gasp*
  • Should get bloodwork results next week!
  • Gotta get the goods to the Wonder Twins Mama!
  • Ordered my Mission Control Jersey, shorts and socks. I'm gonna be like one of the cool kids now. :)
  • It doesn't ease up next week either.... Dance school xmas party, North Pole Flyer trip to Austin, Mom coming in, blah, blah, blah

Talk about hustle and bustle. More later.

Thursday, December 04, 2008

Santa vs. The Cassinator aka The Negotiator

"Hi, Santa. I'm Cassie... aren't I adoreable? "
"I've been a really good girl. CHEEEESE."

Let the negotiations begin...
"Now Santa, about that Barbie..."

"I'm so glad we see eye-to-eye"
Merry Christmas, Santa!

Thyroid Reference

The Board of Endocrinology changed the range of appropriate TSH levels in January of 2003. The appropriate range was .035-5.00 but is now .035-3.00. Anyone having a TSH over 3.00 is considered to have hypothyroidism and should be treated. Anyone between 2.00 and 3.00 with symptoms should be suspect and considered for treatment.

If you have symptoms of hypothyroidism such as the following, please inquire with your physician(s) and/or surgeon about your TSH level. Symptoms of hypothyroidism usually develop slowly over months or years. Symptoms and signs may include:

*Coarse and thinning hair.
*Dry skin.
*Brittle nails.
*A yellowish tint to the skin.*
*Slow body movements.*
*Cold skin. *Inability to tolerate cold.
*Feeling tired, sluggish, or weak.
*Memory problems, depression, or difficulty concentrating.
*Heavy or irregular menstrual periods that may last longer than 5 to 7 days.
*Infertility (primary or secondary)

Other, less common symptoms may include:

*An enlarged thyroid gland (goiter).
*Modest weight gain, often 10 lb(4.5 kg) or less.
*Swelling of the arms, hands, legs, and feet, and facial puffiness, particularly around the eyes.
*Muscle aches and cramps.
*Imbalance / *clutzy*

According to AACE Medical Guidelines for Clinical Practice for Evaluation and Treatment of Hyperthyroidism and Hypothyroidism, the sensitive TSH test has become the single best screening for thyroid dysfunction. To further evaluate the appropriateness of a patient’s TSH level, AACE recommends that a Free T4 test be conducted along with a TSH test. “It is very important for patients with thyroid hormone imbalance to know their TSH and Free T4 numbers. The optimal goal TSH level for patients on treatment ranges between 0.3 to 3.0 mIU/L. Patients should talk to their doctors about their Free T4 numbers, since reference ranges can vary somewhat between different laboratories,” stated Dr. Law."


"Until November 2002, doctors had relied on a normal TSH level ranging from 0.5 to 5.0 to diagnose and treat patients with a thyroid disorder who tested outside the boundaries of that range5 . Now AACE encourages doctors to consider treatment for patients who test outside the boundaries of a narrower margin based on a target TSH level of 0.3 to 3.04. AACE believes the new range will result in proper diagnosis for millions of Americans who suffer from a mild thyroid disorder, but have gone untreated until now."


Chistmas Meme

1. Wrapping paper or gift bags?

2. Real tree or Artificial?

3. When do you put up the tree?
Usually the weekend after Turkey Day, but we'er behind this year. We do have the lights up though!.

4. When do you take the tree down?
The weekend after the New Year.

5. Do you like eggnog?
Effin' love it... but my lactose-intolerant self doesn't. Soy Nog is an alternative, but makes me swooshy in the head (without the alcohol!)

6. Favorite gift received as a child?
I don't know, my Betty Crocker EZ Bake oven comes to mind first. Go figure.

7. Hardest person to buy for?
Every. Single. Person. I. Know.

8. Easiest person to buy for?
Cassie :)

9. Do you have a nativity scene?

10. Mail or e-mail Christmas Cards?
Snail Mail.

11. Worst Christmas gift you ever received?
Cheesey Holy Family Snow globe. Seriously.

12. Favorite Christmas Movie?
A Christmas Story. "You shoot your eye out!"

13 When do you start shopping for Christmas?
Usually at the last minute, but this year I started in October.

14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present?
Naaaah.... oh wait. I have! :( I re-gifted a basket of bath oils and such as a secret santa gift. I didn't want to smell like sugar cookies. heck, I'm sweet enough. *choke*

15. Favorite thing to eat at Christmas?
Any one of Grandma's cookie recipes -- It's like a little taste of the past and reminds me of her.

16. Lights on the tree?
Absolutely... and TONS.

17. Favorite Christmas Song?
I love them all, but Nat King Cole's, "The Christmas Song". Again, it invokes memories of my G'ma.

18. Travel at Christmas or stay home?
Stay Home

19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeer?
I have a 4 year old... of course!

20. Angel on the tree top or a star?

21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning?
Christmas morning.

22. Most annoying thing about this time of the year?
People's piss-poor attitudes when they're hustling and bustling around. Just be nice!

23. Favorite ornament theme or color?
G'mas antique Santa Head. I'm going to put it on the tree for the first time this year. Never did before -- was worried it would get broke.

24. Favorite for Christmas Dinner?
Prime Rib -- it's a family tradition.

25. What do you want for Christmas this year?
Truly, I just want to be happy and enjoy the family time. Although a little sparkly-something is always welcome.

Consider yourself "tagged" if you're up for it -- let me know so I can stop by and check yours out!

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

Humpday Plan

A little later than usual today.
<--- There's the food plan for today. You know the drill: Click on it if you actually want to read it. :)
The workout plan for today is back and triceps:
- Lat pulldown
- Seated cable row
- One legged dumbbell cable rows
- Tricep Pushdowns with rope
- Overhead extension with dumbbell
- BB Skull Crushers
- Dead Lifts
- Assisted Chins

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

I Made It: Eggplant & Italian Turkey Sausage Casserole

Eggplant & Italian Turkey Sausage Casserole

1 Box of Frozen, breaded eggplant cutlets
1.5 C. 2% Cottage Cheese
1 C. 2% Italian Blend Shredded Cheese
1 Package of Jennie-O Hot Italian Turkey Sausage
1 Lg. Can Hunts Traditional Tomato Sauce

Preheat oven to 425.

In a skillet, brown the turkey sausage then slice into bite-sized pieces.

In a covered casserole dish, cover the bottom with a thin layer of tomato sauce then set a layer of eggplant. Cover the eggplant with the Cottage Cheese and 1/2 C. of the Italian Blend Shredded Cheese and half of the sliced turkey sausage. Cover sausage with a light layer of sauce then the rest of the eggplant. Top casserole with remaining sauce, sausage and cheese.

Bake covered for 45 minutes.

About 325 Calories per serving; 26 grams of protein, 30 grams carbs.

Testosterone, Thyroids & Fistula! Oh my!!

Okay... first, I can't believe how totally anxious I was about going. I mean seriously, my heart was in my chest.

I weighed in at exactly the same weight I did last February. Uh, that's 10 months, a triathlon, the MS150 and Livestrong Challenge, ago.

We talked. He validated my frustration, for what that's worth (that's a lot to me right now). He knows I'm frustrated -- and to that end, I think he is too. We both want to get to the bottom of things; he wants me to achieve my more than reasonable goals.

He sent me for a shitload of bloodwork. Even the Phlubotomist blinked twice at the 3 pages of reqs. He said it would probably take up to 2 weeks to get anything back, but he said we should know something by Christmas but here's what we're looking at:

1) Thyroid Issues (never dectected before in the past, but possibly asymptomatic)

2) Insuilin Resistance - A state in which your cells are not responding to insulin appropriately, so the sugar in your blood cannot get into your cells. To compensate, your pancreas pumps out more insulin to try to get the sugar out of your blood and into your cells. The hyperinsulinimia (high blood insulin) that results is able to maintain normal blood sugar levels and delay the onset of diabetes.

3) Testosterone Levels

4) A Fistula -- more common in post-ops who smoke or are prone to ulcers, but a possibility still. Essentially sutures opened up and can create alternate paths for food where absorbtion can happen. Often it can go undetected and is found because weight loss has pre-maturely ceased, or significant weight-gain has occurred.

More to come :)


To do's:
  • ∙ Accept my body... lovingly.

  • ∙ Recognize where I was then and where I am today.
  • ∙ Eat consciously and be aware.
Today I am headed to doctor for my 2 year post-op check-up. I'm still not under 200 lbs. (As he insisted I should be by my next visit with him). I'd be lying if I said that isn't killing me inside -- as if I failed in some way.
It easily makes me feel like a failure if I let it.
It's hard -- it reminds me so much of when I was a kid and couldn't lose the weight under the threat of losing opportunities to do the things I loved.
Ugh... stupid baggage.

Monday, December 01, 2008

Monday Food Journal

<--- Click to see the plan for today. I'm a little short on protein overall -- but that's what I get for not planning ahead of time.
Today is my leg workout: Leg press, Barbell Squats, Leg Extensions, Seated Leg Curl and Traveling Lunges.
Not much else to report. We got home on Saturday and quickly played catch-up with the rest of our neighborhood. It already looks like Christmas... We did our normal, yearly decor, but we're pretty certain our neighbors have us beat wildly on watts used. :)
I'll have some pictures to post later... gotta get some work done.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

I Made It; Light-n-Hearty Pea Soup

Oh Mama... here's your recipe!

My recipe entry for MM's contest....

To speed things up I'll buy a small bag of the "matchstick" carrots. I always need an extra box of chicken stock also.

Split Pea Soup (Great post-op food!)
Servings: Makes 4
Prep Time: About 15 minutes
Cooking Time: About 1 1/4 hours

2 cups dried split peas
2 tablespoons unsalted butter
1 large onion, chopped
2 carrots, peeled and chopped
1 bay leaf
6 cups water or chicken stock, or as needed
1/2 pound spinach, tough stems removed
Milk for thinning, optional <--- I don't use. 1 teaspoon salt 1/2 teaspoon ground pepper 4 oz. Pancetta 1. Pick over split peas and discard and misshapen peas or stones. Rinse peas and drain. 2. In saucepan, over medium heat, melt butter. Add onion and Pancetta; sauté about 10 minutes, until tender and translucent, stirring occasionally. Add peas, carrots, bay leaf and 6 cups of water or stock. Raise heat to high and bring to a boil. Cover, reduce heat to low and simmer 45 minutes, until peas are very soft. If mixture seems too thick, add more water or stock as needed.
3. Discard bay leaf. Add spinach and simmer about 3 minutes, until wilted.

4. Remove soup from heat and let cool slightly. Working in batches, puree in a blender or food processor. Return to clean saucepan and add milk, water or stock as needed. Over medium high heat, reheat to serving temperature. Season with salt and pepper.

5. To serve, ladle into warmed bowls; sprinkle with crumbled bacon or pancetta, if desired. Per serving:

About 385 calories, 23g protein, 61g carbs, 7g fat, 16% cal from fat, 16mg cholesterol, 355mg solium, 23g fiber.

Friday, November 28, 2008

Heh, Heh...

Well, we're halfway home from Alabama (without the banjo on my knee). We did, however, find me a S'bucks for tomorrow morning -- I just consider it alternative fuel fro my trip. :)

I wish! One of my new favorite sites. :)

Monday, November 24, 2008

Fab Food Find: Alvarado Street Bakery Tortillas

Alvarado Street Bakery is a certified organic bakery specializing in sprouted whole grain breads and bread products.

I'm not such a fan of their low glycemic sprouted grain bread, as for me, it the texture is just too dry and grainy, but I love their regular sprouted whole wheat bread, which is still sits decently on the glycemic index.

Given the recent dietary suggestions I received I am trying to add some more carbs. In order to be okay with that, I have to make sure I find the best "good" carbs possible for my body.

So I was very happy to find Alvarado Street Bakery's Sprouted Whole Wheat Tortillas. I'd been using the La Tortilla factory tortillas and I like them okay, but these I really enjoy the taste and texture of Alvarado's better. They're have more of a traditional tortilla texture. When heated, they don't get all gooey and rubbery like the La Tortilla Facotory's tortillas. The Alvarado tortillas stay moist, but not wet.

I haven't tried any of Shelly's awesome pizza varieties yet, but I've used them for a breakfast burrito (egg, canadian bacon, lowfat cheese), as a replacement for sandwich bread at lunch and for quesadillas -- they are yumm-o!

The other thing I appreciate is the fajita size. It's really hard (in my area at least) to find La Tortilla in the smaller, fajita size. The burrito size is just TOO big -- and while it should be a PITA to cut them, it is (PITA; get it? It's a bread pun) LOL I've only seen the Alvarado's in the Fajita size, so no need to sharpen the knives in my house!

(Melting) Mama <---- She's crazy!

The Melting Mama is at it again. Go right now. Share your recipe and get in on the contest. I'm a big fan of Click Protein and it's even better when it's free! :)

Why are you still reading... go! :)

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Turkey Roll Report - Flash Frozen for Your Goodness!

I left Houston on Friday afternoon for a leisurely drive to Dallas. It's about 4 hours from city-to-city and then another hour or so to Denton, TX where the Turkey Roll was to be held

I stopped by my old office and shared coffee with a couple of long-time friends who are former co-workers at the compay that laid me off a few years ago. Our meeting must have been destined though, as minutes before we met one of them he found out that the board had just voted out the CIO who was responsible for orchestrating projects, which led to significant losses, which led to layoffs for IT.

Anyway... moving on...

Feeling how cold it was I knew I needed some gloves for the ride on Saturday. I had forgotten how cold my ears got too, so I made 2 trips to Richardson Bike Mart. Met up with the Cycling Chick Extraordinaire, Coco and WonderTwin Mama Alana and had some dinner and headed to the hotel Got my gear... I was good to go

I knew there was a possibility it would be cold... but I had no idea it would be as cold as it was. I rode in the Frost 50 last year, and I don't think it was this cold. Let's just say that by noon it was a balmy 44 degrees, according to my car -- it was easily 30-something (I heard 34) at 9am, the ride start

Let me be clear. There is nothing fun about riding in cold weather. NOTHING

It could have been a nice ride, but it went sh*tty only because of the weather. We cut our distance short and did 23 miles; a lot of folks were too. No sense it turning something you enjoy doing into something you hate -- there's nothing to prove. It's all in fun.

On the upside, I got to see Courtney, see Corinna do her first ride and met Larry, the grumpy the Kiwanas information man. LOL

Here are some pics... and yes, it was as cold as it looked! My face is wind-burned today:
Me & Courtney (aka Cycling Chick)

Courteny and Corinna

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Chef MD

On my way into work this morning I was listening to Dr. Oz's show on XM. His guest today was John La Puma, a Doctor... and Culinary School Graduate. Right off the bat I thought the combination was interesting.

Long story short, this website Chef MD offers recipes for specific conditions. A lot of different foods offer chemistry that can aid our bodies in absorbing the most of nutrients and assist in alleviating and preventing malaties from occurring

The site offers a mailing list that sends you free recipes. Also, I love the "shopping list" feature. When you see a recipe you want to try, you click on it and it adds the ingredients to a list for you. So far, the recipes I have checked out all have ingredients you can find at a regular grocery store -- which is usually my challenge.

I also like the video that goes with each recipe. While doing the recipe for you, he explains why certain foods are good, and how to maximize their potential to your body. Evidently this doctor has a TV show -- I had not heard of it before now.

Anyway it all sounded very interesting. Just wanted to share it.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Tuesday - Workout & Food

Cardio @ Lunch
30 minutes of HIIT (High Intensity Interval Training)

Stationary Bike
(Not sure I like the idea of riding nowhere outside of spin class)
- 60 seconds all out
- 2 minutes recovery
- Repeat 10 times.

Here's the food log for the day:

Monday Workout - Legs


A little short on time; seems we're on the run lately but got it in.

Leg Press
15 x 325 w/u
8 x 505 lbs.
8 x 585 lbs.
8 X 675 lbs.

15 x 45 w/u
8 x 95 lbs.
6 x 105 lbs.
4 x 125 lbs

Leg Extensions
15 x 30 w/u
8 x 70 lbs.
8 x 80 lbs.
8 x 90 lbs.

Weighted Traveling Lunges
3 Sets of 20 w/15 lbs.

Monday, November 17, 2008

Missing My Sugarfree Holiday "Joy"

It's the hap-hap-happiest time of the year... right? Can't you just hear the music playing?

I know it's my favorite time... The weather gets cool. People are happier... okay the hustle and bustle gets to be much and people easily piss me off with how rude they can be, but then I have my holiday themed, red cup of "joy" from Starbucks filled with my favorite Sugar free Nonfat Gingerbread Latte, no whip, extra hot, to help me cope.

I wait all year for this flavor... it's my little taste of holiday happiness. :)

Imagine how sad I was to find that they are not offering the sugar free Gingerbread flavor this holiday season?

You didn't know? Well, they're not. :( Hmmm I wonder what the Starbucks Oracle (over there on the right) would have to say about that?

If you're saddened, as much as I am, by this horrific offense, then heed my over dramatized, silly, but nonetheless sincere, plea and write Starbucks.

Tell them how your holidays will be ruined without this holiday favorite.
Tell them how you can't have sugar... tell them how having access to this treat doesn't leave you wanting for Egg Nog Lattes or White Hot Chocolates because you're getting tasty, healthy alternative, cup of holiday inspired joy.

Or, just tell them you want it back. :) That's good too.

Applesauce... No Pork Chops :)

Applesauce was one of the things I found out early, my pouch would no not tolerate. It was suggested to eat it with crushed pills to get the pills down. Bleach! Yuck!!

If you havne't tried taking crushed pills with applesauce, don't. And if you do, how can you??? LOL

I've different all-natural and unsweetened ones, with which I still had bouts of *swooshiness* with. Until now. :)

I just tried Mussleman's All Natural Unsweetened, but they do add Splenda. No *swooshiness*, nice flavor and I like the texture.

Chef Dave's book 90 Ways to Ditch Your Diet had a suggestion for a snack. I think it's called Spicey Autumn Cottage Cheeese (could be Autumn Spicey... can't remember). My new need for some good carbs and this snack prompted my purchase of the applesauce:

1/2 c. Cottage Cheese (I use 2%)
1/2 C. Applesauce (I used Mussleman's, above)
1/4 tsp. Pumpkin Pie Spice
1/4 tsp. vanilla
1 packet of Splenda

Chef Dave Fouts is a Lap Bander who formally weighed 400 lbs. I bought the book for a little inspiration when it comes to planning meals and snacks... so far it's pretty good!

Day 1 - New Plan

Here we go with Day 1 of my new plan (click to see it full-size):

It's amazing how difficult it was for me to plan for (and accept) less proetin and more carbs. In fact, it's kinda scary... but I'm going to give this a solid shot for myself (and for Jeremy, since he gave me his time).

I decided to use SparkPeople for tracking again because I can easily manipulate my goals for easier tracking. The one limitation with the Apex/BodyBugg site is that if your macronutrient breakdown doesn't fall within their guidelines, you can't use it. Phooey on them! I just won't.

So the workout schedule this week will be:

Mon: Lift
Tue: Cardio
Wed: Lift
Thu: Cardio
Fri: Lift
Sat: Bike at least 30 miles (or Cardio)

My cardio is going to be something new. On the stationary bike... which I'm not a fan of. But J says try it... so I will. I'll be going full out for 30 to 60 seconds, then slowing down for a couple minutes, then repeast (Intervals). I'll do it 10 times... eventually 15 times.

My weight lifting days will be high intensity, in that I will do heavier weight but just for 3 sets of 6 to 8 reps.

Saturday, November 15, 2008

OH Conference; H-town Style!

Just got back from the conference. I felt that content-wise it was one of the better ones I have been to, but then again it could be because I am in a different place in my "journey."

Jeremy, OH's fitness guy, gave me an hour of his time one on one to talk about my exercise. There could be several things going on, so he made some suggestions.

First I'm going to lower my protein intake (I was getting up to 180 g's a day). He said between 120 and 130 is plenty, and that at 2 years out absorption is not as much of an issue. In lieu of the protein I'm cutting, I'm going to add some carbs. I'm going to cut my cardio down to 2 HIGH intensity sessions a week, plus a 30 mile bike ride. Weight training will remain, but it will be a consistent 4 times a week.

The caloric breakdown will be:

125-130 grams of protein/ 520 cal
150 grams of Carbs /600 cal
30 grams of fat/ 270 cal

I'm pretty comfortable getting in about 1300 to 1400 calories and with the suggested changes in my workout, it might help.

But... I also found out, and I can't believe I didn't realize this: In spite of my 212 lb. body, I sit at 34% body fat. I'm on the cusp of being of healthy body fat (25% to 32%). Jeremy says I should focus on that and forget about the danged BMI. I told him what I'm most worried about is my waist measurement, as I am apple-shaped and carry my weight in the middle. I told him I want to lose 6" on my waist. I don't care what the scale says I'm at.

Sooooo, then I did the most unexpected thing. While watching a plastic surgeon's presentation I saw pictures of bodies that looked like mine... my double cottage cheese stomach that looks like someone hung it from a coat hook. I saw a few more pictures, and it got me thinking..."ould that really be my stomach?" I was brave. I signed up for a free consult. I felt kind of stupid because I figured he'd think I was nuts coming in with my 200+ lbs.; but he didn't.

What he did say was "excellent job with your weight loss. Your back looks great." He said, "I don't recommend a circumferential body lift, but instead an extended tummy tuck." "Huh?" I thought?

As he's grabbing my pannus in his hands, he says "...all this will be gone." I was stunned. I asked, "About how many inches would that take off my waist?" He said "4" easy, possibly 5" or 6." Of course he had to qualify that because it wasn't a detailed consult, but he "felt very good about it" and said again that I definitely don't need a full body lift.

So, in the end there's really nothing much I can do about my pannus. I never ever thought I'd be a candidate for plastics, but as I understand it at the moment, for my body this will be the only way to get my desired result.

Knowing that, coupled with the fact I'm so close to being in a healthy body fat % range really makes me feel better about where I am. Add to that no longer being Diabetic and no longer experiencing sleep apnea and it's a pretty good deal. :)

Sorry to seem so manic about progress this week, but it is my blog. :)

I have no where else to vent! Anyway, what great findings on my actual 2 years out (today!).

Friday, November 14, 2008

Freaky Friday

So here's the pie-hole action for today. ---> click to see the full-size image... that is, if it matters to you :)

Tomorrow is the OH Conference and I'm going. This is always a challenge for me, as being social in a group of folks I don't really know is always uncomfortable and it never seems to get easier. Fortunately I have people in my life that are just here to challenge me *gag*. To that end I reluctantly agreed to be a greeter. I know, Deb, I have to come out of my shell sometime. It's so much easier to be friendly online! LOL I'll miss the meet and greet tonight, but the real meat of the event is on Saturday. Jeremy is OH's fitness guy and he's agreed to spend some time with me looking at my food journal and caloric expenditures. Maybe he can make some helpful suggestions. I also made my 2 year post-op visit to have my labs done.

On Sunday, we're doing Disney on Ice for Cassie. She's all excited about seeing her favorite Disney friends on skates. Speaking of skates, I really want a pair of roller skates. I hear they're making a comeback. I just think it would be great exercise, and far safer than my roller blades. I was a great skater (both roller and ice!) and I thought roller blades would be an easy transition. Huh... think again. :) It's pathetic that I have to strategically park my Jeep so that when I come around the loop I can grab my spare tire to stop! LOL If anyone wants to buy a pair K9 roller blades that are barely used, size 9, let me know! LOL I don't know much about blades, but they were high quality blades with some kind of high tech braking system, but I got them on super-duper-mega clearance. :)

Last night was my second-to-last workout with my trainer. :( So here's the workout action from last night:

Alternated Cable Row with Cable Bicep

Cable Row
15 x 60 lbs.1
2 x 60 lbs.
10 x 60 lbs.

Cable Bicep
15 x 50 lbs.
12 x 50 lbs.
10 x 50 lbs.

Alt'd Barbell Shoulder Pres w/leg lifts on bench

Barbell Shoulder Press
15 x 45 lbs.
12 x 65 lbs.
10 x 70 lbs.

Leg Lifts
3 Sets 15

Alt'd DB Chest Press w/DB Tricep Extension

DB Chest Press
20 x 17.5 lbs.
15 x 25 lbs.
10 x 27 lbs.
6 x 32 lbs.
4 x 45 lbs.
2 x 50 lbs.

DB Tricep Extension
15 x 25 lbs.
10 x 25 lbs.
6 x 25 lbs.

Good ol' Fashioned crunches on disk:
3 sets of 25

Thursday, November 13, 2008

It's so "yucky" out!

It's been so yucky out the last few days in Houston. We haven't had this many days of rain, in a row, for a while. It's just so dreary.

<---- Here's What's planned for the pie-hole today. click to see the full-size image. Not much to really post, other than to say "thanks" for the supportive comments. Like I said, I'm pretty spirited about where I am right now, it's just when I really think about where I want to be, where others are and why I'm not there it bugs the snot out of me. Fortunately though it's not long enough to be bring me down for the long haul The long haul is, after all, what we're in it for. I like to remember that if you're stuck in a boat on the middle of the lake, even with just one oar, if you keep paddling your moving. It's when you just say *F* it and give-up that you'll just sit there and make no progress whatsoever. On the whole -135 from my highest weight is amazing -- and that's what I need to remember. This week is the OH conference in Houston. I've met their fitness guy, Jeremey, at the SA conference several years ago. He was very knowledgeable and if I decide to go, I plan on picking his brain. :) He was so helpful last year... we were sending emails back and forth and finally we just got on the phone and he gave me an hour of his time. I was very appreciative... still am.

This is such a busy time of year for us at home. The OH conference is this weekend and next weekend I have the Turkey Roll ride in Denton, TX -- this is a new ride for me. :) Should be fun!

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

We Won!

I've written about this before; the displeasure with the breakfast cart at my Daughters daycare/school. I'm not one for denying Cassie anything totally, but I am for making proper choices 80% of the time and have her understand that we enjoy some foods only sometimes, "Sometimes Foods."
It works in our house and she gets it. I truly don't think she feels deprived.

The breakfast cart at her school was inconsistent, at best, with their more "healthy" offerings. Occasionally they'd have fruit, eggs, breakfast meat, etc. But always they would have frosted pastries and sugary cereals.

The dilemma is that a pre-schooler wants nothing more than to assert their Independence and make their own food choices... and to that end they should be able to! We teach our kid about healthy choices vs. other choices. We never say something is "bad", we just say it's not a "healthy choice".

I had written a couple letters to her daycare, they were pretty lengthy (go figure). They weren't necessarily about eliminating these not so healthy choices, but rather relocating them so parents could see them, then they could decide if it was an option for their child to choose from on a particular day. Face it, if a pre-schooler has a choice between a pink, sprinkly iced pastry and a plate of scrambled eggs, what are they going to choose?

Nothing ever really came of my letters, beyond their acknowledgement (which was received very politely and empathetically), until last week.

It had been a few weeks since Cass had an iced pastry treat (I don't even want to type the brand name, but it rhymes with "mop fart". Personally the thought of her eating these makes me cringe, because I know they have no nutritional value whatsoever.

On the way to school she tells me she hasn't had a "mop fart" in a "weewee wong time" (that's "really long time" to adults) and ask me if she could have one "if I have something healthy first."

Of course I was elated... she got it! She understood the difference in the 2 foods. "Of course you can!", I told her.

We get to the school, we're both happy, she races to the breakfast cart...

Duh, duh, duuuuuh <---- that's dramatic music for the something bad that's about to happen.

No Mop Farts
No sugar covered nuggets
No brightly colored cereals

The tears start... I feel terrible. So does the school's cook who hears Cassie sobbing. It was right then I was informed that all sugary foods have been removed from the breakfast cart... for good.

I was happy we won, but sad for Cassie at that moment. Cassie reluctantly and sadly picked out some yogurt and juice and we went to class with tear-filled eyes. She'd make it through the rest of the day without a mop fart. :) Sad as it was; it's a huge deal to a 4 year old!

I dropped her off and the school's cook came out an apologized to me. I tolder "don't be silly. there's nothing to apologize for." "This is a good thing -- the kids just have to adjust." She said she just felt so badly about it. I told her don't... it's the best for them long-term.

I don't think she believed me, but I did. :)

2 Years... Time Flies When You're Having Fun!

So my 2 year surgi-versary will be here on Saturday and I have very mixed emotions.

Quite honestly I don't know why I haven't had the success others have experienced and it is frustrating -- I have to admit it. I eat right, God knows I exercise. I've talked to several professionals but no one offers any answers -- they say, "eat more", "eat less", even "don't workout so hard." Still at 2 years out I've not hit -100 lbs. (since surgery). It's like my body is taunting me, holding me pretty much the same at -95 lbs. I know folks who break the rules daily, or totally disregard them and don't exercise -- even they yield better results! And yeah, it pisses me off sometimes... I feel cheated and admittedly, childish, at times. It's pathetic sometimes.

I can't let this be something that saddens me though. Do I regret my choice? Hell no -- just for the simple fact I am no longer Diabetic is reason enough for me. Knowing I won't face the same fate my Grandmother did, losing limbs -- or having to inject myself the rest of my life (and still have issues) makes it worth while.

I am in better health now, more than ever, and I can't believe 2 years has passed so quickly. I have done so much and accomplished so many things I thought I'd never do. Simple things, like being able to fit comfortably in chairs, to challenges like the MS150.

Like I said... "time flies when you're having fun.", and I am.

Do I still think something is wrong? Yeah. How can I create no less than a 1,000 calorie deficit a day and not lose... even to lose s-l-o-w-l-y would be more than welcome! I have to get to the bottom of this. This was exactly the same problem I had pre-op. Exactly. I got to a certain weight, but never could get lower than that.

I don't feel like I can be an active participant in WLS communities because of my lack of generally perceived success. I try focusing on what I achieve, and use that as my personal barometer, but it's not the same. WLS peers look at me puzzled, as if I'm hiding some dark truth about what's really going on behind the scenes. My blog is really my only outlet and I've really not met someone else like me to talk with and share information in an effort to figure out what is happening with my body. I participate on OH occasionally, but just don't feel like I belong.

Ugh... enough! I knew this wasn't going to be an easy road... I just thought that since I had already made certain lifestyle changes, I wouldn't have as big of a challenge as others. I know how to eat right and exercise. Most of the time I can keep my head in the game, unless I'm purposefully reflecting on past progress, or lack thereof.

At this point I'm not even targeting a certain weight... I just want my hip-to-waist ratio to be healthy and that means just 6" off my waist and hips. Just 6"! I know in my heart I'll get there, but it will take more time and more effort, which is fine. Luckily I like this thing they call exercise... and plan to continue to do it for the rest of my life. :)

So here I am... definitely looking better than pre-op, but still have a long way to go.

Monday, November 10, 2008

Routines, Rides and Ruby

I've been a little busy the last several days. Darren has been sick with a stomach bug and Cassie and went to Dallas for the weekend

As for my planned events, I'm going to side-step the Independence Ride (although I love the cause) and do the Turkey Roll in Denton with my TriDiva girls. I just found out that there are 16 of us planning on doing the Triathlon in Austin for 2009! Holy cow!!

Today I started back with working out over the lunch hour. I'm trying to figure out a schedule that will afford me a good mixture of activities. I have to have a schedule... I need a schedule. I need a routine. I'm like a kid!

Monday - Lunch "hour" Workout (really takes hour and 15 minutes
20 mins HIIT
20 minutes of weights (arms, shoulders, abs - easy)
20 minutes to shower and get back to work!

Tuesday - After Work Workout
20 minutes cardio
weights (legs)

Wednesday - After Work Workout
20 minutes cardio
weights (chest, back, abs)

Thursday - After Work Workout
Training Session - Just 2 left! :(
Friday - Lunch "hour" Workout
20 mins HIIT
20 minutes of weights (legs - easy)
20 minutes to shower and get back to work!

Spin Class or Ride
Wii Yoga

Wii Yoga

So next week is my 2 year surgi-versary. I need to make my follow-up appointment with my doc. I haven't lost anything in 5 months... It's hard not to feel frustrated. On the flip side, I haven't gained. :)

I watched the first episode of Ruby last night. I can understand what her friends mean when they say she is "intoxicating." In 29 minutes I wanted to be her biggest cheerleader. I am curious to see how this all falls out. I accidentally came across this show on a commercial (which I never watch because I TIVO nearly everything). Kind of odd to find this kind of programming on the Style Network, but okay, I'll give it a try.

I love the way they're approaching it, from all angles... physical, emotional and dietary. No magic pills or shakes. No doctor pressing her to have surgery -- so far that option was not even mentioned. Just Ruby, finally fed up and scared to death that she'll die in her sleep from her Apnea. Get your Kleenex ready, I think you're gonna need it for sure.

I will say this... at 500+ lbs. this woman gets around incredibly well! I can recall a few episodes of Big Medicine with people who weighed less and were even more immobile. It's always been interesting to me that you can have 2 people at 500 lbs. and one gets around amazingly well and the other can't get up from a bed.

Thursday, November 06, 2008


Need to schedule my 2 year post-op visit. :) Anxious to see my blood work! It still blows me away everytime I find out I'm still no longer Diabetic.

Thursday workout:

20 minutes Cardio intervals

Start out with squats, but my knee was buggin' me. Probably just a touch of tendonitis from running at the Challenge. In fact, my hip is still buggin' me a bit. So, with the knee pain, we just went for upper body.

Everything, except the bench press, on Freemotion Cable Machine:

Bicep Curl to Shoulder Press
3 sets 25 lbs. x 15

Lateral Cable Pull-down
1 set 15 x 70 lbs.
1 set 15 x 60 lbs.
1 set 12 x 60 lbs.

Tricep Press
3 sets 25 lbs. x 15

Bench Press
20 x 45 lbs.
15 x 65 lbs.
10 x 85 lbs.
6 x 110 lbs.
2 x 135 lbs.
1 x 145 lbs.
Tried 150 lbs. Didn't have it! Might have been in my head :(
2 x 145 lbs.

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

Experiment: Avocado Mayonaise...

Check this food science experiment out... Interesting!

On My Birthday....

After all these years, I've finally decided to be kind to myself. At 41 I'm doing things I've never done before and feel better than I ever have. I have a fantastick Husband and beautiful Daughter who love me on both good days and bad. And while my circle of friends is not that big, the ones I have are quality

Slowly I'm coming to terms with the fact that my WLS journey will be long and slow -- unlike many others'. I am slowly realizing the fact I may never get any smaller than a 14/16 but that to be truly healthy and fit is what is important. Hell, from where I was, it's still amazing -- I'm just 5 inches away from a "healthy" size waist!

After sharing the LiveSTRONG pics with some friends, I realize what I see is still not what they see. To be told that they see muscle tone and have an athletic build are good things and I need to recognize that. It doesn't mean that I can't keep moving forward, but I need to appreciate what I've accomplished this far, instead of beating myself over what I am physically not.

So that's my birthday present to me. :o) If you didn't take a peek at the birthday circus I found in my office this morning, see the previous post.

My Very Own Circus!

With the political circus over (just how did Obama know I wanted him to win? :o That's a huge gift!), my birthday circus starts! I am, officially, part of the "Over 40" demographic. And you know what? I'm okay with that; even kind of proud. I will enjoy my day.

Of course no birthday goes untold at the office... below are pictures of what I walked into this morning.

You know, sometimes when I bitch about the commute on days like today, I realize that in the big picture it's minor. These folks I work with really are the best. I've made a few very good friends in places I've worked before, but at this place there's more "good" than "bad." I have an amazing boss who leads by example, and the people I work with are just so thoughtful. Makes me all warm and fuzzy. :)

Came into work this morning to find my office wrapped up! The monitor, keyboard, mouse, phone... even my eyeglasses, were all wrapped. Plus, animals setup to do circus tricks all over the place!

Dogs jumping through fiery hoops, tigers waiting their turn and "Hoops" being blown out of a Nerf Gun on my YouTube video costume. Plus a whole zoo of balloon animals scattered throughout my office.

They ain't right, I tell ya!

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Random Thought...

You know, there is a counter at the bottom of this page and it shows limited details about the visitors to my blog. It's kind of cool to see where they came from, what they clicked on, or even what country they're from!

What's really interesting though is that in the last 3 weeks these 3 google searches have brought a bunch of folks to my site:

1) "Pumpkin bread"
2) "Sausage Stuffed Pork Tenderloin"
3) "2008 LiveSTRONG Austin"

I get number 3 and even number 1, but number 2 is so specific, it makes me laugh.

Guess it's proof that if you write it, they will make it... or at least find it through Google. :)

Halloween Fun!!!

It's dress-up day here at work today, because our inventory is tomorrow. I've been Palinized... Well, I'm not Palin, really. I'm Tina Fey, portrying Palin on YouTube. :)

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Wednesday Workout

Barbell Bicep Curl
3 sets 15 x 30 lbs.

BB Preacher Curls
3 sets 12 x 30 lbs.

Alternating DB Hammer Curls
3 sets 15 x 15 lbs.

BB Skull Crushers
3 sets 15 x 20 lbs.

Side Lateral Raises
15 x 15 lbs.
10 x 15 lbs.; 5 x 12 lbs.
7 x 15 lbs.; 5 x 12 lbs.

BB Shoulder PRess
3 sets 15 x 20 lbs.

Assisted Chins
12, 10, 7

20 minutes cardio; intervals

Official Ride Results

You can click on the results to see it larger.

So remember how I was beating myself up? After receiving the ride results today, it is clear I definitely was not the only one having a hard time! There is no way that out of nearly 500 riders, that I finshed as well as I did.

Just some confirmation that this course was challenging for everyone. :)

All in all a great experience (except for the road conditions of the course -- still hated that). Should have the official race pictures next week!

Humpday Nut Info

Total Calories: 1,502
Protein: 49% (186.7 g)
Carbs: 24% (90.6 g)
Fat: 27% (44.7 g)

Tuesday Workout

Lat Pull-down
15 x 70 lbs.
12 x 80 lbs.
12 x 80 lbs.

Alt'd with Tricep Press
3 Sets of 15 x 40 lbs.

Hammer Curls
3 sets of 15 x 17.5 lbs.

Bench Press
Bar only (45 lbs.)to work on lower range of motion)
20 full range reps + 10 half range reps
15 full range reps + 10 half range reps
10 full range reps + 10 half range reps

3 sets 15

Leg Lifts on Bench
3 sets 15

20 minutes cardio on some new Precor 100i machine... don't know what the heck it is.... it's not an ellipitcal and it's not a stairmaster.

Monday, October 27, 2008

LiveSTRONG Pics...

Create Your Own

LiveSTRONG Ride - Done

Last night I sat down to the computer and started writing a blog entry that pretty much found more failure on my behalf than success this weekend. The things I said about myself I would never have said to a friend. On the ride home, after talking about the weekend, several things occurred to me.

This weekend is not about me and my accomplishments. I mean, it is to some degree, but that's the least of it in the big picture. The weekend was about everyone challenging themselves by doing what others cannot, while raising money and awareness for Cancer... all kinds of Cancer.

Darren reminded me of what one of the announcers said, "This weekend is about giving YOUR 100%" And that 1 person's 100% might not be the same as someone else, so there is no reason to feel badly about what I did or did not accomplish.

I did the 5K at a 12.2 pace -- that's phenominal for me. The ride, well, that was a different story. I registered for the 65 miles and decided to do the 45 mile ride and it turned into 30 miles.

I started the ride and was quickly separated from my friends once we hit the hills. 2 of them were new to biking and through no fault of their own, they were going to be slower just because they were on mountain bikes. I felt badly, but there was little I could do except sit on the roadside and wait. I took liberty meeting some of the folks who were on the roadside cheering everyone on to show appreciation (and to give my friends a chance to catch-up). The cheerleaders along the course are so inspiring... just when you think you have nothing left, they just talk you through it. We had cattle ranchers, cowbells, marching bands and just good ol' fashion lawnchair observers watching us do our thing.

The ride started out fun, but I knew immediately the 5K took a ton out of my legs. I didn't want to admit it. I thought that if I just kept spinning I would get my legs back.

The course was immediately challenging. Keep in mind (I didn't know this before I started) these are the same roads Lance rides on routinely. The climbs were steep and the downhills were freakin' scary -- even with a head-wind, imagine 30+ mph, downhill, on a bike! I passed up the first rest-stop at just 4 miles in (it was BUSY!) and went on to the 2nd.

Things quickly went downhill (no pun intended). I got 2 flat tires before the 10 mile mark. Ugh! I changed one, then a mile up the road got another (the tube was bad). Had 1 tube left... if it went I would get a DNF, as the SAG wagon didn't stock tubes with the extra-long valve.

I got back on the bike and my legs and hips were just tired. No burning no anything, just tired... like I had no juice. I had to get off my bike several times to make it to the top of a couple climbs. I even called my friend Courtney for some inspirational speech on my cell phone -- or to at least let someone know that if I didn't return to send out the search parties. Seriously, at one point we were joking as the raven's were circling over our heads. LOL I was feeling pretty badly physically and was beating myself up pretty good mentally. I just couldn't understand why I didn't have it in me... I mean, I did the MS150... never had to dismount my bike once! I thought about all the things I had managed to do, but couldn't see why this was such a problem -- I thought, "It's just another challenge."

I got to the second rest stop and I took a long break, ate and hydrated. Went potty and checked out the map. At just 15 miles in, the thought of SAGging back crossed my mind briefly as my hips and legs were killing me. I realized that people were cutting their distance down by re-entering the ride at a different spot.

So after much argument with myself, I decided I would do the same -- at least I wouldn't be SAGging, and 30 miles in these hills was still a huge challenge. By the time I allowed myself to take the shortcut they were packing up the rest-stop -- that's how far behind I was. As I headed up the road I came across my friends. They were plodding along trying to make it to the stop to get some food and hydration. I stopped them and told them they were packing up, but a SAG wagon came by and gave them some food and drink. I told them my plan, and they were for it too. They were giving it their 100% -- we all were. It was just hard!

We re-entered the ride, and thankfully had tail-winds. I needed every bit of help. The chip-gravel, bumpy roads were causing my elbows to ache. Everytime I rode over a set of cattle grates I prayed I wouldn't wipe out. Cattle grates are almost like shallow ditches with pipes spaced out across them to keep the cattle from going up the road. They're hard on the bike. In fact, I think that's how I got my first pinch flat.

I can say this though... I was ahead of Lance on the course! That is until he passed me! LOL He was doing the 90 mile route. I had hit about 23 miles and a cop car came up behind me. The SWOOOOSH, like a swarm of bees, Lance and his guys zipped past me. Then, a couple minutes later, the group of guys that he dropped s. It was kind of wild to know that I just rode next to Lance, even if it was for a nano second. LOL

Word on the course was that some woman beat Lance's time by 5 minutes... evidently she hangs out at Mellow Johnny's, Lance's bike shop in Austin. Don't know if it's true, but that was the word.

The last coule miles were a welcomed change from the chip-gravel country roads. We were on the regular pavement and with no hills and a tailwind I was actually going 23 mph!

I crossed the Finish and felt a little defeated. But I'm not going to focus on that. Because having done the 5K the day before and riding the following day is something new for me and my body. Just because I can ride 2 days back-to-back, doesn't mean I can just waltz in and over-achieve.

I have every reason to feel good. I did give this MY 100%, and I do.

Saturday, October 25, 2008


Forgot my jacket...

Forgot my water bottles...

Probably would have forgotten my head if it weren't attached to my shoulders!

It was beautiful weather here in Austin. I really like this city. I don't know what it is, but there is such a laid-back feeling about it. Even the downtown hustle and bustle is low-key. This morning it looked like cyclists and runners run everything in this town. LOL

It was nice and cool, not too cold. By the time we made it to the Start area Starbucks had opened just in time (pure joy!) for both potty and coffee! I had a part of a banana muffin, part of a banana and about a 1/2 cup of yogurt fruit and granola, compliments of the Texas Culinary Institute.

Lance was not present at the festivities, but Evan Handler, from Sex and the City, was there in his place. I didn't know he was a Leukemia survivor.

It started and I heard my Daughter, "Go Mommy, go! go Mommy, go!" I makes me smile that she loves to cheer me on! She said it's Okay if I don't win, because I'll have more fun than all the other Mommies. :)

Anyway, I worked most of the run in 5 minute intervals, running 3 to 4 minutes of each interval (where I could). Although I think San Francisco lost a couple hills to Austin's downtown area, but I trekked up those hills like I meant it. On my "rests" I couldn't get my heart rate lower than 154 (that I saw anyway) after the first mile. Most of the time my heart rate was around 165 to 170!

I started my heart rate monitor as I crossed the start, and in the end I finished in an unofficial 38 minutes - that's a 12.2 minute pace. That was waaaaay better than I ever would have expected. I did have a timing chip, so I'll get the official results soon.

I grabbed a LiveStrong Pompom from a volunteer for my biggest cheerleaders who greeted me at the Finish.

We headed to iHop and talked about how Cassie and Daddy would start practicing with Mommy and we can all run a 5K together! Incidentally, there were a bunch of little ones there... not much older than Cass!

We stopped at the LiveSTRONG Village where Mommy scored another free water bottle (water bottle problem solved), Cassie scored a free tot-sized LiveSTRONG tee (probably because she's too cute! I can say that, I'm here Mom). We had silly magazine cover pictures taken in an effort to win a Nissan Maxima or a Trek bike or some other prizes. Last, I bought an awesome LiveSTRONG jacket .

More later, including pictures -- can't upload this super-duper memory card to the laptop. We're headed out to the Austin State Fair.

Tomorrow, the LiveStrong Ride. :)

Friday, October 24, 2008

Mama for Obama

I'm happy. I voted early.

If you want to be happy like me, vote early too.

I don't care who you vote for... just vote.

Seriously, it leaves you feeling all tingly inside. :)

Turning the Corner...

I don't have a ton of time, as I need to pack my gear for my ride this weekend. Have I mentioned I'm doing the LiveSTRONG ride in Austin, TX? :-p While I didn't reach my goal to chow-down and have dinner with Lance, I might get to stalk him at some point over the weekend. LOL

As you can see, some things have changed around here. When I first named my blog it reflected where I was at that time. I was very pre-0p and I really felt like I just didn't have time. I was slowly removing myself from life and found myself watching more than doing -- which if you knew me, you'd know that just wasn't right.

I felt damn near hopeless and had a brand-new baby girl to care for, teach and protect. I knew something had to change for me: a) To lose the weight and get my Diabetes in control and b) Not pass on my same warped issues with regard to weight on to my kid. Well, we all know how things ended up. Fast forward to 2 years later and I am now post-op and feel so much better about the role model I can be for my daughter.

Kim doesn't realize this, but this morning she asked me a question about an aspiration of mine. Still, I have a hard time saying exactly what that aspiration is. That's another blog entry, but while I don't believe these things whole-heartedly anymore, this is what fight in my head, this is what I heard over and over again growing up:

"You could never be a dancer..." you're too fat.
"You could never land that part..." you're too fat.
"You can never play sports..." you're too fat
"You could never make a living as a singer..." you're too fat.
"You could never get that kind of job..." you're too fat.
"You have such a pretty face..." under all that fat.
"You can't wear that..." you're too fat.

Basically my weight would keep me from doing anything I loved to do growing up. And even though I'll be 41 years old next week and totally know better, these things still haunt me in the corners of my mind and I know they keep me from achieving future goals if I don't get over them some how.

This is the part of journey that's the most challenging. I have got to get through this to see myself at the end. Ironically, this part of the journey is unavoidable for anyone who has lost weight, or has lived live obese -- it doesn't matter how or even if you lost the weight. It could be these very thoughts sabotaging your heart, spirit and mind.

I feel like I am in a place and ready to turn a corner. It's like I know if I turn it, I'm going to have to move forward and it scares the crap out of me. I feel so stupid, so immature. Ugh... Let's just stop here.

Since I am living my life in ways I envisioned, and in ways that are good for me, I am learning more about who I am and who I am not. to that end I needto change this blog. It needs to reflect more of who I am, and less of who no longer am! *head spin*

While we all might die tomorrow, or in the next 5 minutes getting hit by a bus, it's true we never know how much time we really have. What is important is what we do now. Right now.

Well, I'm going to wrap it up here. I've got to get us packed and ready to go. Wish me luck, and as usual pics will be forthcoming. :)

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Thursday Workout and Sadness :(

Bench Press
20 x 45 lbs.
15 x 65 lbs.
10 x 95 lbs.
6 x 115 lbs.
3 x 125 lbs.
2 x 145 lbs. <--- benching more than Hubby (for the moment anyway)
10 x 65 lbs.

Assisted Chin-ups
3 sets 15

Barbell Shoulder Press
15 x 45 lbs.
12 x 45 lbs.
10 x 45 lbs.

Saturday I have the LiveSTRONG 5K and on Sunday I have my bike ride (65 miles). My biggest cheerleaders are coming with me; Cass is excited to use her pom-poms for real!

Got some sad news, well, sad for me. My trainer is leaving our gym -- and training altogether for that matter. He is joining the military. It's been a dream for him so I'm glad.

He's just helped me so much! But, at some point I have to be on my own. 5 more sessions and we're through. It's like breaking-up! :(

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Checklist for LiveSTRONG Weekend


Running shoes



Sports Bra

Race Belt

Water Bottle

Quick Dry Socks





Assess Chamois Cream








Water Bottles

Extra Tube

Small Towel


Ziplock Snack Bags

Dried Apricots

Granola Bites

2 GU packs



Maps to Hotel

Maps to LiveSTRONG Village

Map to 5K

Map to Ride Start

Map from Ride Start/Finish to Home

Hotel Confirmation

Bike Rack on Truck

Cheesecake Dip??

Have you seen the whipped topping tubs in the supermarket that are filled with cheesecake filling? Seriously, your heart just wants to stop in its tracks!

As usual, I get a lot of my information (and inspiration) from Egg Face... Shelly makes some of the most amazing things!

Anyway, I made a "cheesecake" fruit dip which was great on apples and strawberries:

1/2 C. Fage Yogurt
1/2 C. 2% Cottage Cheese
1/4 C. SF Vanilla Soy Milk
Dash of Cinnamon
1 tsp. Vanilla
Splenda to Taste

I blend it up with a stick blender so there's no cottage cheese lumps and it's just smooth and creamy

Although they're humongous and I can get 3 to 4 servings out of them, Honeycrisp apples are awesome this time of year!

Monday, October 20, 2008

[this space for rent]

Sorry... no creative juices for a witty title. :(

This coming weekend is the LiveSTRONG 5K and ride. Honestly I didn't train well. Effin' running, I just can't get motivated to do it, so I will be "wogging", but my goal will be to average less than a < class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">fro the 65 mile, also because I didn't train enough for it (thank you Ike... and everything else in life). I just couldn't make riding a priority over everything else and I'm okay with that. There will be other times I can be more focused. Also, J, my riding partner from the MS150 is doing the ride with me, and she has trained even less than me! The Austin hills will be challenging, but it should be a great time!

I didn't hit my fundraising stupidly aggressive goal of $3k -- that was what you had to raise to have dinner with Lance. Oh well... :( Still almost $600 is pretty good since so many forked it out for me with the Ms150. I love taking part in these events for the challenge, the inspiration and helping to raise awareness, but I hate the fundraising part. Don't get me wrong, it's all good... it's just I can only solicit my friends so much before they start pretending they don't know me!

Incidentally, if you're sad because you haven't donated (I know you're cryin'... I can hear you :-P ), why not be the first to donate to me 2009 MS150 effort? I'll wait... go on. Take a look-see. LOL

Exercise Plan:
Monday: Cardio
Tuesday: Training Session Lift/Cardio
Wednesday: Cardio
Thursday: Training Session Lift/Cardio
Friday: Off
Saturday: LiveSTRONG 5K
Sunday: LiveSTRONG Ride 65 Miles

This past weekend we took Cassie to Dewberry Farm for some fun. I'll be sure to post some pictures. No, none of the pictures are nearly as good as my attempt to be cool at a pre-schoolers birthday, but Cass had a great time in the Pumpkin Patch, mining, rubber duck races and playing on everything. It's a pretty cool place those farmers have setup... and their wallets can be hurting much considering how many folks were there! I was a little bummed I didn't get to shoot the corn or pumpkin cannons, but we bought season passes, so we'll be going back before the end of November.

Last night we carved the pumpkins too. I'll be sure to get some pictures. They came out spooooooooky.

We're having a costume contest at work. My plan is to be a You Tube video of Tina Fey doing Sarah Palin's greatest hits. I'm stoked that I won the auction for my fist-sized Flag and Polar Bear pins! Just need to find the glasses. LOL Now I just need to get the accent down.

Saw a review of these on SparkPeople. I checked my local supermarket, but nada. Any nettin'friends try these?

That's it for now.

One more thing... I think early voting starts today in Houston. I really don't care who you vote for, that's your choice, but please, please, please get out and vote!

Nut-info for Monday

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Friday, October 17, 2008

Some PhotoShop Fun; DWTS Goes Political

Boss sent me this and I can't resist sharing it.

They are, after all, politicians, so they do know how to "dance." :) At one of them might have a promising alternative career path.

C'mon, you gotta admit, they look hot! LOL :)

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Journal and 2009 MS150 Houston to Austin

Get the daily business out of the way. Today is a training day. Not sure what dinner will hold, but it will be a lean meat and veggie. This is from my Apex BodyBugg journal program.

So I did it! I registered for the 2009 MS150 again. I figure it can't be as bad as it was last year, doing it with record winds, right? :) It's also the 25th anniversary of the event, so I suspect it will be one to remember.

Registration for the event opened at 10:15 am and there are slots for 13,000 riders. By 1:52 pm it was 82% full -- had no idea that there were so many gluttons for punishment out there. I'll be riding with Team Mission Control. I also found out that a couple of my former co-workers are going to be riding. Out of all the people there last year, I actually ran into them!

Getting in now will afford me riding time with others. The team does a series of training rides and that will fall in line perfectly with training for the Austin Danskin in 2009. After the LiveSTRONG ride is done, focusing on riding for the MS150 and the Danskin will be my goals.

I did make it to the gym yesterday (Yay!), but honestly I'm having the hardest time getting back into the swing. I hate being in this place. For me, when I feel the progress that's what motivates me to go each day. Don't get me wrong, I'm not sliding backwards or anything, I just don't FEEL it like I normally do. Here's a rough plan...

Wednesday - Cardio / Lift (Upper Body)
Thursday - Training session / Lift (Lower Body)
Friday - Cardio / Swim (???)
Saturday - Bike Ride, 30 miles
Sunday - Bike Ride, 40 miles
Monday - Off
Tuesday - Training session

Tuesday, October 14, 2008


If you have not yet seen my "Tough to be Cool" video, scroll down to check it out. Nothing else for today except my food plan.

Monday, October 13, 2008

I Made It: Stuffed Pork Tenderloin with Sausage, Apples and Walnuts

Yep. More food porn. :)

I first made this dish for some friends who were moving out of the country and they loved it. It had been a while since I made it and brought it out again. Looking at it makes it appear more difficult than it is (don't fear the roast!). It is super simple, and super impressive. Well, at least they were impressed! :)

For a healthier option substitute Turkey Italian Sausage. I calculated the nutritional content based on regular pork Italian sausage because I was too lazy to look-up and enter the turkey stuff.

2.5 - 3 lb. pork loin roast
4 hot turkey italian sausage links
1/3 Cup toasted, crushed walnuts
1 shallot, diced
1 Granny smith Apple, diced (I washed; didn't peel. It was fine)
1 1/2 t. Parsley
Olive Oil
String to tie up roast
Roasting Pan

Preheat oven to 400.

Remove skins from turkey sausage and brown in pan. Add shallot and apple, cook 3 more minutes.

Mix sausage mixture with parsley and walnuts.

If not already split, split your pork roast. I found that slightly butterflying each half gave me more room for stuffing.

Cut 4 pieces of string and lay across the roasting pan. Lay 1 half of the roast on top of the string.

Overfill the bottom half with the sausage mixture. Lay the top half of the pork roast on top, to make a sandwich.

Begin tying the strings firmly, but not so tight that the filling squeezes out. If you see areas where the filling is seeping out, just add another tie. I have 8 - 10 ties by the time I'm done. My pork roast is bound up as tight as my boobs in a sports bra!

Heat a pan with olive oil and sear on all sides until golden brown.

Place in oven until a thermometer inserted to the inside of the roast reaches 170 degrees (about 50 minutes in my oven).

I Made It: Pumpkin Pound Cake

So MM referenced this recipe and I decided to make it. I absolutely love, love, love pumpkin -- especially at this time of year. This was the most moist and tasty low-carb, no sugar baked good I've ever had. Would love to try this recipe in mini muffin form.

Be sure to follow the directions and wait until it is cooled before removing from the pan. I neglected to pay attention to the instructions, and when I tried to remove the loafs they kinda broke.

Also, I split the loafs and made 2 smaller ones, so I got 16 pieces instead of 12. Mine were baked in glass loaf dishes and I reduced the baking time by 15 minutes. See below, my nutritional content is a little different. Perhaps because I used Bob's Red Mill Almond Meal (flour). Incidentally it is a little pricey at my local grocery store at $12.49 a bag.

I looked at the comments and saw some people complain about how much Splenda was in it, but frankly I think it's great the way it is. Keep in mind you're using the measurable Splenda, not the packets.

My nutritional info came out a little different (higher). High fat content, but aAt least the fat content is quality fat (Omega 3's from nuts and eggs), but definitely a "treat" not a routine eat.

From: Livin' Low Carb and Lovin' It - George Stella

* Vegetable oil spray, as needed
* 2 tablespoons wheat bran
* 2 1/2 cups almond flour
* 1 1/2 cups sugar substitute (recommended: Splenda)
* 1 1/2 teaspoons baking powder
* 1 1/2 teaspoons pumpkin pie spice
* 1/4 teaspoon salt
* 7 eggs
* 1 1/2 cups canned pure pumpkin (not pumpkin pie filling)
* 1 1/2 teaspoons vanilla extract (no sugar added, imitation is usually best)
* Equipment: 9 by 5-inch loaf pan
* Serving Suggestion: homemade sugarless whipped cream


Preheat oven to 300 degrees F.

Spray the loaf pan heavily with vegetable spray and sprinkle with the wheat bran, shaking the pan to coat on all sides--this will prevent sticking.

In a bowl whisk together the almond flour, sugar substitute, baking powder, pie spice, and salt. In another bowl, beat the eggs and then whisk in the pumpkin and vanilla. Combine the dry and wet ingredients and stir until combined. Pour the batter into the prepared pan and stir to combine.

Bake until golden brown and a toothpick comes out clean when stuck in the center, about 1 1/2 hours. Cool completely before removing from the pan. Slice into 12 portions.