Saturday, October 31, 2009

Some Good News!

Finally got my sub 13 (12:54) pace on a long run this morning.  9.02 miles.  The farthest distance I've run in my life. :)

I needed this so bad after last week's disaster at the HHM Relay.  Beautiful weather, nice and cool.

Changed my nutrition this morning too.

1 c. coffee
1 pc. wheat bread
1 egg
.5 oz Cheese

2 Hammergels -- 1 in each 10 oz. bottle MIXED with water.

I felt good and strong the whole time.  Groin was noticeable, but not painful, definitely on the mend. 

Friday, October 30, 2009

Where I'm At...

I've been horrible about blogging with any regularity lately; could be a reflection of my state-of-mind these days. 

My slight goin injury is doing better -- it didn't bother me at all during or after the HHM Relay.  I have a 9 mile run tomorrow, so we'll see how it goes after that.  I'm optimistic.  <---- about something anyway!

Darren is registered for his first run!  He's doing the 5K Turkey Trot and I'm doing the 10K.  I'm excited for him -- and the fact that we actually get to do something, somewhat, together. :)

Thanksgiving plans are to stay at home this year and I'm grateful.  Darren was somehow able to get his Mom to come here for a week.  I am so happy Cassie gets to spend more than just a couple days with her Nanna... she'll be thrilled. 

The scale has krept up 8 lbs in 10 days. and seriously, with no good reason.  I am so bloated, it is ridiculous!  I'm having trouble keeping focus and my hair is so dry I really just want to rip it out.  I think part of the reason I've not been blogging is because I'm so frustrated with this Thyroid BS and I just want to feel better.  I feel like it's all that's on my mind these days. And if that's all that's on my mind; that's all I'm going to write about.  And I hate to focus on the frustrating and feel so negative all the time. *sigh*

So, with that said, my Chrio is going to do this test on my neuro transmitters, general vitamin levels and cortisol levels.  If my cortisol levels are high, it could be creating a secondary problem for my thryroid.  I have to collect urine and saliva at home on Sunday and then send it in... we'll see how it compares to my annual bariatric bloodwork. 

Oh, yeah, I'm coming up on my 3 year surgiversary.  Whoopie.

So having committed to doing the Olympic Distance in April for the Lonestar Triathlon Festival, I am going to work with some coaches to train more efficiently.  I get out and swim, bike and run, but I really don't know how to do it efficiently, and I know I could be doing it better and yielding improved results.  When I started to search the I'net for info, I just get overwhelmed.  More to come on this. 

Here's some pics from HHM:

That's my relay teamate, Steve.

There I am... in the red. 
I think this was towards the finish.
I was dying. 
Incidentally 1434 (my "shero")
is headed for Ironman Florida next week!

Steve and Cathy Starting...

Somewhere on the run, wearing tights
I should not have been wearing!  I was so effin' hot! 

Friday Fill♥Ins

And...here we go!

1. It was a dark and stormy night, all I want to do is sleep.

2. There were far too many for him, so I offered to take the books myself.

3. Rushing out, I forgot my laptop!

4. That was creepy... I think I heard a howl!

5. Shhhh... listen.

6. Here's your choice:  Smell my feet or give me something good to eat!

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to a "family night", tomorrow my plans include a 9 mile run and Sunday, I want to volunteer at the Ironstar Tri. 

Tardy for the Party - Thursday Thirteen

13 Random Things Under "You'd Think I'd Know Better By Now"

1)  That when something comes out of the oven it's hot.  Trying to quickly turn the fishsticks with my fingertips only ends up with me running my fingers under cold water.  Oven hot hurts, but I can wash dishes in super-hot water with no problem. 

2)  Nothing. New. On. Raceday.

3)  That I cannot make garlic bread without burning it -- it's a family gift, passed down, started by my Mother

4)  That the best intentions often get derailed and I shouldn't get flustered when life gets in the way.

5)  That when Mommy has a snack, ultimately it becomes Cassie's too.  Same goes for drinks.

6)  Only give Cassie the choice between "this" or "that".  Do not give the choices of"this", "that", "the other thing" or "that one over there."  It's painful to watch her make a decision!

7)  Internet maps are not always right.  Nor am I when it comes to geography.

8)  If I don't manage my allergies, they won't manage themselves.

9)  That I really can accomplish whatever I set out to -- it all starts just by strating and moving forward even if only in some small way.

10)  Always keep an umbrella in the car.

11)  "Right" doesn't always win.  That said, it's not always about the "win".

12)  Only fear of succeeding can keep me from commiting.

13)  That a "tight schedule" only gets tighter, so don't over commit. 

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Sunday, October 25, 2009

Race Report: 2009 Houston Half Marathon Relay

Let's just say the best intentions don't always pan out the way you hope. Today was a disappointment in some ways and a success in others.

I went into this wanting, so badly, a 12:50-something pace. 12:59 would have had me dancing in the streets! Something about crossing from 13-something to 12-something is significant to me. I've crossed from 14-something to 13-something and I am grateful for that. I see that 12-something on my shorter runs, so I know it is right around the corner on my longer runs, so I guess it's so close I can nearly touch it, but it continues to escape me.

So I received my "sinus miracle", in the form of a steroid shot and oral steroids for the congestion, but I just felt like the stay-puff marshmallow man. Heavy legs... I mean heavy. Evidently the steroids make for water retention. I think I drank nearly 200 oz. of water yesterday to keep from retaining, but I could feel it. I could see it. Ugh! In short, there was no more a spring in my step than a hot day in the North Pole.

I got up around 3:45, planned 4:00, but couldn't sleep. It was race-day, you know? I laid and bed and kept visualizing the clock at the finish... not that it helped. LOL I had some issues with nutrition this morning and my routine, so that caused me a little stress right off the bat.

Usually I have 1 egg, on wheat toast with some cheese. Today I decided on some oatmeal with some almond butter and honey -- there were only 2 eggs left and I wanted to leave Hubs and the Cassinator some breakfast! I had my coffee too -- along with that usually comes my mornng *moment*. No moment. I'm like clockwork. When I can't go before I leave the house I get worried it will be worse later. This is probably too much information. Sorry. I started taking an anti-biotic yesterday and was sure I would wind up feeling the effects at the race. Not the scene you want to have at a port-a-potty. :( In the end I had no *moment* today -- hmmmm.

The weather turned out to be a little warmer here than expected, so I was questioning my race apparel. I bought some CW-X tights and they were a tad too warm for today. That probably didn't help. On a good note though, I felt absolutely no fatigue in my hips or ITB -- but that could have been an effect of the steroids too. I think it was 63 degrees when I left the house, so at least I know now, what's too hot for tights.

It was 2 miles to the relay exchange. I walked 1 mile and warmed up the last mile. My relay partner steve finished his 6.55 in about 1:10 (or close to that). I started off and felt okay the first few miles, except I was having trouble pacing myself. Normally it isn't a problem, but I'd look down and I'd be running and 11 something mile; that's not me. So as a result I would peter out quickly. Just something I noticed. I am considering that if I can run the faster 11-something pace, then maybe I should drop my intervals to 4/1 from 5/1. Maybe my average in the end would be better? Just a thought.

After the first few miles though my heart-rate was easily reaching the 170's My average hear-rate is between 155-158, like clockwork. My hope it was the unexpected heat, the meds, the adrenaline. I saw one guy down for the count with medics, so I was being careful, knowing that I was not 100% and was lucky just to be racing today.

The miles past and I just felt worse. I got the half-way point around 44 minutes and thought I had a shot at a better pace, but I really just slowed down from there.

With about 3 miles to go Cathy caught me. She was doing the individual half. She had ridden yesterday 60 or 70 miles, so today was just for the mileage. She hung with me for a while, and that's probably why my finish wasn't worse than it was. She kind of pulled me along. :)

I got my bling and a nice Asics Singlet. Slow or fast, you still get your bling. :)

Left the race and went grocery shopping; wearing my bling. Oh yes she did!

Then I came home and slept for 3 hours.

Then I got up and realized I still had to be a domestic goddess. :)

Things I did well:
- Persevered. Easily could have not gone today.
- Training. Dedication is paying off and probably the only reason I was able to do what I did.
- Downed 24 oz. of electrolytes before the race. Good girl.
- Gel'd it up every 30 minutes with my CarbBoom

Things I could improve:
- Check weather; no tights if > 60 degrees
- Go back to regular breakfast.
- Sleep. Sleep better (sickness kept me from sleeping)
- Nutrition. My nutrition sucked the day before and couldn't eat the morning off.
- Not feeling bad about a so-so performance. I didn't DNF/DNS.

In the end, some of the things that impacted my performance were out of my control. Getting sick and having the meds, probably caused most of my challenge, but it always sounds like a lame excuse. LOL

No thanks to me, Team T&L finished in 2:41 with a 12:22 pace, thanks mostly to my relay team mate, Steve. :)

Received: One Sinus Miracle

Well I got it. I can breathe through both sides of my nose. I'm off for my first official "running" event, where I'll actually run. My goal is still to come inside my goal pace, but I'm still hoping for 12:something. even if it's 12:59 LOL.

Feeling a little tired.

Didn't have my normal breakfast... had some oatmeal with almond butter. Tried this the other day to make sure it wouldn't give me any gastrointestinal upset. I was good.

Had my 1 cup of coffee too.

Still haven't had my morning moment; I hate when I don't get it before I leave... if you know what I mean!

Got my Cytomax and my Nuun. for Hydration.

CarBoom Gels for my run (4 - 1 15 mintues before, then one every 30 minutes)

Kind Bar and organic lowfat chocolate milk for recovery.

I' breaking a race day rule too; we had a cold-snap here, so I got some compression tights by CW-X. I figured the discomfort from being cold over-rode the rule, that and maybe help my IT band issues.

Hopefully I won't regret it!
Be back later!

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Wanted: One Sinus Miracle

So my swim at the lake in my wetsuit yesterday was good. Let me tell you, this girl is definitely buoyant! :) That said, I found that the buoyancy kinda screwed with my stroke a bit -- I felt "messy". It took a lot of concentration. I can tell I will need to practice.

After though, that's a whole 'nother deal. I guess there was lots of pollen on the lake, or something. Whatever it was it started killing my sinuses. I woke up at midnight, not being able to breathe or swallow. Of course a trip to the local medi-clinic was in order first thing this morning.

So, a shot in the ass, scrips (steroid, anti-biotic and antihistamine) I can only hope for a sinus miracle before the relay tomorrow. I'll go, no matter what, but happens happens. Got my shot around 10 -- still have felt much relief, and it's now almost noon. :(

Supposed to go to a costume Halloween party tonight, but I'm not sure I'll be able to attend :(

Friday, October 23, 2009

Friday Fill♥Ins

And...here we go!

1. The crickets sing, and the birds chirp -- that's jacked up!

2. Welcom to wherever you are.

3. I want to get far away from the office.

4. To have the family I have; this was a dream.

5. But as for me I'll hang in there and figure it out.

6. New Jersey! That's where I come from (born in the Bronx though)

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to being away from work, tomorrow my plans include Halloween Party and Sunday, I want to PR at the Half Marathon Relay!

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Thursday♥Thirteen - Random Goings-on

13 Random Things - Goings On...

1) I have a Halloween party this weekend. I'm going as Octomom. Can't decide if I should duct tape or velcro the babies to my body, or carry them in a baby bjorn, sling and car carrier.

2) The cake balls recipe came out good. I am now going to make a much healthier version of them from a pumpkin cake. They should come out YUM.

3) My first warm-up race for the Houston Half Marathon is this weekend. I will be sharing a relay with one of my tri group team mates. My goal is a 12:58 pace, but no slower than 13:28.

4) My hip injury turned out to be my groin. I slightly strained it. I think I must have did that when I face planted the pavement on my early-morning, dark as night, run a few weeks ago. It was at the end of that run that I started having pain. Not sure why it took me 3 weeks to figure it out.

5) I get annoyed with doctors who are so busy they have to rush through everything.

6) There are only 87 days until the Houston Half Marathon.

7) There are only 14 days until I turn 42. Come January, in the triathlon community, that really makes me 43. Sh*t!

8) I've said it before, I still don't get Twitter. I twy... I tweet.. I even started a twibe for beginner triathletes. I did get RT'd by the Gayle King Show on Oprah Radio yesterday... kinda cool. Now, if I could only get Jillian Michaels to reply or RT LOL

9) Hubs is doing well... he's back on the wagon again and slimmin' down.

10) My dress arrived for my Boss' diner. It didn't fit :( Too tight in the hips and arms (my problem areas with loose skin). When I initially ordered they didn't have the size I wanted (a 16) but after looking at the sizing chart, it told me I could fit a 14, so I bought the 14. When it didn't fit well enough (it fit great everywhere else) I was bummed because I knew the 16 was sold out. I got online and checked... they had a 16 -- evidently they got some returns. Lucky me, for once!

11) Got into a brief, but deep, conversation with Hubs last night about what I want to do with my life. Maybe I don't really have a "calling". Maybe being home and doing for my family, what wasn't done for me, is what I want to do. I have to explore this more.

12) My feet are freezing today. Toes are almost numb.

13) I'm going to try out my new wetsuit tomorrow. Whoohoo!

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Monday, October 19, 2009

Randomly Recapping...

So my Boss is being honored with a pretty prestigious award. I don't want to list it here for obvious reasons, but she is a big supporter of the ADL Anyway if you look through their site for an award being given in November, no doubt you'll come across her name. :)

Long story short, I was supposed to be interviewed and share my opinion about her. I was sooo looking forward to contributing to this video, but due to some car trouble I didn't make it (that's a whole 'nother story). I was incredibly disappointed. What's really cool is, she invited me to the dinner. I am really honored that she did so. Actually, very surprised too.

Well, I have the dinner to look forward to; it will be wonderful to see such a deserving candidate honored.

On Saturday I had my long run. My hip was hurting, still, even after 4 visits to the chiro last week. My regular Chrio had been out of town and I figured she'd be busy getting caught up. Plus this Chiro I went to see is a sponsor of my running and tri groups, so I thought, okay, I'll give them a try. It was convenient because they saw me on a Saturday.

Ugh... so ticked. I felt like I wasted 4 visits. Not to say anything bad, because they help others. I just didn't feel like I was getting better. Headed to MY Chiro today. :)

In spite of the ache, I managed to do my 8 miles at a 13:30 pace. I'm pleased with that, because even in pain, I cut 2 minutes off my last 8 mile time. It was great running weather too... a nice, chilly 62 on Saturday morning.

Later Saturday, Cassie and I make "cake balls". Well, really, I made cake balls.... Cassie just licked everything clean. Needless to say I brought them to work to get them the heck outta the house!
Sunday we took our "punkin'" (Cassie) to the Pumpkin Patch at Dewberry Farm :) Of course that was a good time, but made for a late night. I need a rest from all the fun!

As for this week, I'm planning on Running Monday, Tuesday, Thursday. Bricking on Wednesday and swimming at the lake (Testing my new wetsuit) on Friday. On Saturday I'll be resting, because I'll be doing my first "official" running event on Sunday: Koala / Luke's Half Marathon. I'm doing this as a relay with one of my tri club members.

Also, I will be putting my new CPR, AED and First Aid certification to work. I joined some other tri club members an volunteeered to join an AED team that will be present at triathlon events. Kinda nervous about doing it, but if I have the mad skills, I should give back. :)

MS 150 preferred registration started. I raised over $1,000 for my ride so I get to register. I've not thought or re-thought once about my choice NOT to register this year. Wish I could donate my spot to someone who wants to do it. :(

Friday, October 16, 2009

Friday Fill♥In

And...here we go!

1. So are we going to live on the edge?

2. The unknown, the future, is what's up ahead.

3. I love to challenge myself and try new things.

4. For breakfast, I have to have protein of some sort.

5. I walk a fine line between having my sh*t together and being disorganized.

6. O.N.E Coconut water is the true elixir of life!

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to family, tomorrow my plans include running and a mammogram and Sunday, I want to achieve everything I need to get done.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Thursday Thirteen ♥ the "Only Slightly Later Than Normal" edition

Going themeless on Thursday Thirteen, is like going commando. No, wait... it's more like a box of chocolates... never sure just what you're gonna get.

1) Had a unexpected, but good run last night. Well, not the run so much as the after-run party in the parking log. Several of my tri training group friends are headed to IMFL, and I think I'm almost as excited for them, as they are for themselves.

2) Hip is not doing great, but I guess better in some ways. The last mile of my run last night was bugging it. Back to the chiro today.

3) Started doing some of the food combos for my meals out of Jillian Michaels' Master Your Metabolism Bood. Who knew 2 eggs and an apple would satisfy for so long... seriously.

4) Having a hard time focusing at work. Go figure. Nothing new here.

5) Found another diagnostic imaging program that's only 6 months in duration. Hmmmm. Still so unsure what I want to do and have no idea how to do it. At least even thinking about it is moving forward still.

6) Not sure where the cooler weather went. It was good for a few days then back to 300% humidity.

7) Looking forward to going to Dallas in November; just me and the Cassinator off to see "Aunt Beth" and "Du" with the Tri Divas while I'm there.

8) The holidays are approaching way too fast. WAY TOO FAST! We got tickets for the Polar Express trainride and am already putting together "wish lists" for Santa!

9) Taking my "Punkin" to the pumpkin patch this weekend; Dewberry Farm is a blast.

10) 8.5 miles to run on Saturday. Will I ever achieve a "Runner's High"? Someone last night said I had to run a full marathon to get there. Hmmmm. :-/

11) I got my Xterra wetsuit (thanks for the recommendation, Misty). It fits! I will test it out next week at the lake. :) Anyone want to purchase a sleeveless shorty?

12) My new running shoes are not-so-new after the Du on Sunday -- see the picture in a previous post. I've also determined that even though I'm determined and motivated to challenge myself, I find no value in racing in mud or rain. It doesn't make me a whimp... it just means I hate racing in mud and rain.

13) And in the area of small victories, I've done 3 sub 13 minute pace runs in a row! I might just make that goal of 12:30 marathon pace by January. 95 days until the Houston Half. Incidentally, the Tri Divas might be considering the Hills and Heels Half in May! I'll do anything for cute tech shirt and road trip to Dallas. :)


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Monday, October 12, 2009

Du the Bear aka Du the Muddy-buddy

It's no secret I suck at running... I mean I try not to suck, and I have improved, and therefore suck less, but I still suck.

Du the Bear was my first Duathlon. I figured it had lots of running and that's what I needed to focus on. Instead of running my scheduled 7 miles for my Saturday Long run, I ran 5, figuring I'd get 4 more on Sunday, plus the bike.

I was happy when I woke up, expecting to have great weather for racing. We lined up and it had been misting already. The Guys started, "and they're off." The Women started and the skies opened and the rain came. LOL What are you gonna do?

But even after the rain, running 5 miles Saturday morning, a gait analysis, Maggie at Kola working on my hip AND being on my feet for 4 hours volunteering at the 10 Miler packet pickup I had 2 of my best race runs, ever! Both runs were sub 13 minute paces.... like 12:30 and 12:40 -- pretty close splits, so that was kind of cool. Typically the second run is a couple minutes slower.

Maybe there's something to that being on your feet all day!

The bike was okay. I mean it was raining, wet and yucky and riding in rain does nothing for morale. I should have played the lottery though, because I was lucky enough to get stopped by the same cop, at the same light, on each loop (and it wasn't because I was riding at light-speed).

The mud sucked. My one legged yoga moves came in handy, balancing while changing shoes. Lastly, I must be getting faster/better, because there was hot food left when I crossed the line.

I had a little discrepancy between what my Garmin reported and what the race results reported. In the end, it appears that the 5 minute offset for the Athena class was not applied. I would have never been able to prove it, or point it out to them, if my friend's husband hadn't been taking pictures!

Friday, October 09, 2009

So, I'm in the store...

And an issue of "O" Magazine screams at me... not whispers, but screams.

The cover stories reads: "Who Are You Meant to Be? A step-by-step guide to finding (and fulfilling) your life's purpose"

Given my current state-of-mind, how could I NOT bring that home with me?

I guess part of what parlyzes me too is making the wrong choice. I'm not sure why it bothers me so because I totally know and appreciate the fact that after enough failures you find the right way to go or do something; it's a natural progression. If we all did it right the first time around, what a boring world this would be? Imagine how many discoveries would have been overlooked?

I just feel like I don't have time. I'm going to be 42 in less than a month. I know it's not old, but I feel like not knowing what the hell I need to do drops my maturity level to that of a 20-something year old finding their way.

There is value in failure and I get that. Totally.

So I started a report here at work and while it was compiling, I immediately went to the little tool O's mag provides for helping you determine who you already are, and maybe just didn't know. Incidentally you can take it online here.

Here are my top 3 scores, and while I don't agree with each and every sentence, I do see where I strive to do certain things. Of course I've always known I am creative, but recognition with regard to career/work is kind of off. Work is work; I work to make a living I don't have to be the big cheese -- in fact it's not my thing at all.

You scored: 18
You are a stabilizer: You are the rock in a storm, the one others lean on. Loyal and com-mitted in your relationships, you maintain a support system of like-minded people whom you look out for. (So what if you do it behind the scenes and don't get credit?) You're careful with money, cherish the familiar, and defend the traditions you care about.

What to watch out for: Rapidly changing environments (like a shaky economy) are very hard for you. As a result of such instability, you can spiral into a state where everything seems catastrophic and you're sure life will only get worse. You can also become overcontrolling, rejecting any suggestion that doesn't conform to your idea of the way things should be. To avoid being too rigid, each month try changing one habit. Exper-iment with clothes, drive a different way to work, initiate conversations about subjects you wouldn't normally discuss. And when the opportunity arises to do something new, avoid the impulse to immediately say no—this may be nerve-racking, but the more you practice, the less anxious you'll feel.

Looking ahead: You find meaning in pursuing safety and certainty. Focusing on family can give you great satisfaction. Also consider planting a vegetable garden, hosting class reunions, volunteering as a lifeguard, teaching at your church or temple. In the work arena, look for positions where you're responsible for others, and for making sure everyone is following the rules. You work well in any environment that is stable and consistent. Careers in government, finance, the military, law enforcement, and product manufacturing are strong options for you.

You scored: 15
You are an artist: You came out of the womb with a paintbrush in your hand. Or maybe it was a flute or a castanet or a fountain pen to go with your poet's imagination. The point is, you're an original, and you know it. Even if you don't have a singular gift, you're drawn to the arts—anything creative, for that matter—and you have a unique way of looking at the world. Your need for depth and authenticity in relationships can lead to both great joy and profound sorrow, depending on whether others reciprocate. You don't care so much about adapting to group or societal expectations; your independence and sharp intuition propel you on your own path.

What to watch out for: When fear of conformity overrides your creativity, you can assume the role of "outsider" or "orphan" and end up feeling alienated. You may even go so far as refusing to vote or pay taxes. This lone-wolf stance might be a defense against feeling vulnerable. Try to be aware that blaming others for your banishment, or pushing away those who want to get close, only makes things worse. Also, dramatizing your emotions can interfere with your creativity.

Looking ahead: As long as you genuinely express yourself, you feel like the person you were meant to be. How you do it is irrelevant. A chef or architect can be as much of an artist as a painter or sculptor. Many advertising and public relations executives are also highly imaginative. Beyond work, there are opportunities everywhere you look to coax out your inner artist: Design your own jewelry line, create an innovative blog, dream up a comic strip. Relationships are another avenue for self-expression.

You scored: 13
You are an achiever: Ambitious, competitive, and hardworking: That's you. With a clear image of who you are, you work tirelessly to make sure your accomplishments are recognized. Your drive for success extends to your family, and you invest a lot of energy in helping them live up to your expectations. Thanks to your knack for diplomacy and abundant charisma, you often inspire others.

What to watch out for: You are prone to becoming a workaholic, slaving away toward success while neglecting your personal life. Because you're driven to gain approval, you can find yourself performing for others like an actor; if you become overly concerned with your image, you end up feeling superficial. To keep your ambition under control, get involved in group activities that require cooperation. Also practice listening to those around you and think about sharing the spotlight from time to time.

Looking ahead: Any career that allows you to scale the ranks and gain recognition, status, even material rewards, lights you up. Actress, entrepreneur, salesperson, politician—you get the picture. And consider balancing your professional challenges with personal ones: Run a 10K, train for a triathlon, compete in a tennis tournament, bike from one end of your state to the other; or join a debate team, play in a poker circle, enter your purebred spaniel in a dog show. Whenever you can win at something, you're happy.

Friday Fill♥Ins

And...here we go!

1. Sweet dreams, Punkin'.

2. Julie brought Oragami paper in especially for me.

3. Silliness always has a place at some point during the day.

4. I'm dressing up as "Octomom", Cassie is a kitty-cat and I have no clue what Darren will be this Halloween.

5. Outstanding or not this is your life, make the choices to make the most of it.

6. Figuring out which direction to go and how to proceed is what I want right now!

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to a family dinner. Tomorrow my plans include a 7 mile run, free gait analysis, volunteering and date-night with Hubs to celebrate (late) our anniversary and Sunday, I want to make it through the Du!

Thursday, October 08, 2009

Thursday Thirteen ♥ The Completely Tardy Edition

13 Random things on an all-around annoying day.

1) Not getting my quiet-time in the morning when I get to work. This time is priceless for getting my day laid-out and organized... oh, and for getting caught up on Google Reader. LOL

2) I haven't trained enough bricks for the du, and yesterday was no exception. You would have thought I would have made do (haha), but I didn't -- life gets in the way. The best I an hope for on the du is 2 runs under 30 minutes -- the bike won't be stellar, but okay.

3) You know that wesuit I was thrilled about winning for $188? Sure it was a good deal on a 1x used suite that retails for $430. But someow I felt deflated when I learned today that Xterra is selling the same suit, on sale, for $159! BRAND NEW

4) Picked up my race packet today -- received yet another water bottle. What do people do with these? I have recycled a bunch already.

5) I hate when my helpdesk person gets lazy and doesn't lift a finger more than is necessary. She's military. If you don't give it to her in "orders" it doesn't get done. It's been a lesson for me too.

6) I hate leaving the office and having to come back for an issues that the person in #5 could have handled if she had her head screwed on straight. I left the office at 3, had to come back for an issue and am I'm still here at 6:41 pm. Need to reboot the phone system but the Boss is a little chatty on the phone. Might be a CLM "career limiting move", to reboot while she's talking.

7) Still don't get the whole tweeting thing. I try though. I mean, if you're going to Tweet on Twitter, then at least tweet back!

8) Runny noses and brain-jossling sneezes annoy the snot out of me.

9) I don't understand fake, insincere people. Oh, and people who don't own their mistakes. I mean, everyone "f"s up

10) I'm mad about being stuck at work, but kind of glad I'm not running in the humidity. How is that annoying? I'm kind of annoyed it's not bothering more that I won't be running.

11) Love my boss... but still on the phone (6:50)... just shoot me. Maybe I need a nap on the Princess Ready-bed that sits on the floor in my office for my Daughter's visits to the office. LOL

12) Don't you get annoyed too when some folks just can't take a hint? That said, if it's important enough I don't bother mincing words... I'll let you know if it means that much.

13) Waiting, waiting, waiting.


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Wednesday, October 07, 2009

A Whole Lotta Nuttin'

Well, I know things have been pretty boring, at best in this blog lately. I don't feel like I have much new to share, and hate to repeat the blather because I could go on, and on, and on.

So, having said that... here's some blather, if you must know:

I'm in a uncomfortable place right now. Health-wise I'm working on my running and making progress, but still don't have the thyroid BS under control. It impacts so many different facets life that it really would be fascinating to explore, if it weren't such a frustrating mindf*ck on the scale.

I'm certain my hormone levels have me all emotionally jacked right now too. I mean, I tear up at TV shows/commercials, I am moody and sensitive. I mean, what woman would be happy getting their period twice a month? Yeah, lucky me. Maybe I should play the lottery.

Add to that, it's no secret I'm not happy with what I do for a living, and at this point it just makes me sad. I need to find and decide on something new in the next 2 years; hopefully we'll be in a position where I can make a career change without impacting my family too much and still contribute. I still cannot believe that at nearly 42 years old I still think about a new career in terms of whether if I'd be too fat to succeed in the the job I might want.

Effin' "programming." *eye roll*

I hate to sound so down, but this is my reality right now. This "fog" just kind of hovers -- I don't dwell in it, and I do try to be thoughtful about the situation and come up with different ideas and ways I can succeed. I'm just in that place where you know you have to make a change, but you just don't know what to do or where or how to start and there are some real-life factors that are precluding you from just moving forward.

If the past dictates the future, then being uncomfortable with a situation is what lights the fire for me. I know I'll figure it out. I'm seriously considering some daily meditation -- maybe that will give me some clarity on the path I'm supposed to see ahead of me.

My Husband is beyond patient and supportive. I'm not sure why or how he does it? He doesn't try to "fix" me, he just seems to give me my space but still shows concern. Sometimes I hide more than I should (and I know he's reading this at some point) and I say something that surprises him when he hears the truth of how I feel about something.

Our Anniversary was this past Saturday -- we are married 6 years, togheter for 10 in December -- Wow! How life has changed for us since then -- and really it's all good. I can't imagine my life with anyone else; SHMILY! My gloominess is absolutely no reflection of of my love Husband, Daughter or family -- in fact, they are the very ones who keep me focused on continuing to try and figure things out.

In some other news, I'm the new proud "co" owner over an Xterra Vortex 3 Full Wetsuit -- I got a smokin' deal on Ebay. It was used once by a dude who got sea sick, and nevr used it again. It is over $400 retail and I got it for $188. Should be here by Friday or Saturday. I say "co-owner" because Hubs is going to use it for kayaking too! The wetsuit is really all I need for the Lonestar Tri next April. A lot of folks were fine with Sleeveless Shorty wetsuits for swimming in the Gulf in Apirl, but not me -- maybe the HypoT has something to do with that? Who knows.

Oh, I have Duathlon on Sunday. A Du for which I haven't really been training, so this ought to be fun. I've been running, but not much riding and I haven't been bricking, which is going to cost me, I'm sure. I figure I may as well do my 7 mile run on Saturday, because no matter how I cut it, I'll do shitty at the Du on Sunday. I'll do shitty, but I'll have fun. :)

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Sunday, October 04, 2009

Saturday Run Training

I left my run feeling good about my performance, only to be deflated when I got home and downloaded the data from my Garmin.

The good was, I did the 8.07 miles at keeping with my current average pace. I'm no rock-star, but if I can keep steady over the long distances, I'm good with that.

Here's the thing though. I thought I would challenge myself and change my intervals from 4/1 to 5/1. When I got home and downloaded the data, I was still at 4/1. The real catch is, the run felt like I was going 5/1. LOL

Last week I finished the 7.97 in 1:48 -- yesterday did the 8.07 in 1:51.

Towards the end of the run I started having trouble with my hip flexor, so I couldn't even keep with my intervals. I didn't want to be stupid about it and make a small problem bigger.

Despite my stretching, I am also, I'm having some tightness in my Achilles -- that's not good. Talked to the Doc who was at the finish and he said moist heat and if I still have the tightness, come in. Apparently this kind of injury can just explode all of a sudden. And, it can also change your gait, as your body tries to compensate for the weakness.

Not a terrible run, but I would have been happier if I finished doing 5/1 intervals. There's always the next training session.

I have Du the Bear next Saturday. I've been spending so much time on the running, I haven't really trained much on the bike. Ugh! I know I'll get through it, but it probably won't be a great showing. Then again, you just never know!


Friday, October 02, 2009

Friday Fill♥Ins

And...here we go!

1. I have a history of being forgetful; misplacing things.

2. How the future will pan out career-wise is something I wish I knew.

3. I'm eating (or recently ate) egg on an ezekiel english muffin.

4. I think life would be hard on the road.

5. So that's it, that's all I lost? Gees!!

6. A little taste is better than nothing!

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to TR's birthday at the farm, tomorrow my plans include an 8 mile run and a hair appointment (Finally!) and Sunday, I want to chillax!

Thursday, October 01, 2009

Thursday Thirteen -- The Artistic Touch

13 Artistic Things you might not know about me (as if you really care):

1) I tap danced on and off for 13 years. Actually I was a really good dancer and according to my Mom (an accomplished dance teacher) had "natural ability, but not the body for dance."

2) I auditioned and was accepted to Westminser Choir College. I had to sing 2 contrasting pieces. One was in French (and I can't remember it!) the other was a jazz version of Somewhere Over the Rainbow, arranged by this real talented kid in my High School

3) I sang with The Wormen's Chorus of Dallas & the Turtle Creek Chorale and recorded a CD called Sing for the Cure -- An amazing experience! Met Dr. Maya Angelou!! And the only reason THAT happened was because one of my former co-workers/friends believed in me enough to push me to audition for their group!

4) I was part of the Diocese's "Festival Choir" during my first marriage and had to pass up performing in Rome (St. Peter's Basilica). My first husband just didn't get what music meant to me and gave me a really hard time. Ironically he's also the reason I didn't finish school -- not that I don't own that decision but he was the instigator. Ugh... he was so not good for me in so many ways.

5) I once entered a cake decorating contest with my Grandmother. I made a cake shaped like an owl. I used those licorice shoe laces to outline the Owl and toasted coconut for his feathers. I don't think I won anything, but it was great fun and I've never forgotten spending that time with my "Gram"

6) I've been taught to knit and crochet more times than I can count, yet still I can't do it and only ever remember how to do the "chain" and nothing more. LOL

7) I sewed my Daughter's first real halloween costume from scratch (when she was two). Even made the hat. She was a witch. Damn! Wish I had a picture...

8) When my Mom's ballet company did the Nutcracker, I not only helped make all the costumes, but made dresses for each of the dolls the little girls danced with, all by my self. :) I was super-proud of them! Plus, how many 13 year olds can bead a tutu like nobody's business!

9) Have soooooo many creative ideas to implement in my home, that often I just don't know where to start and none of them get done. Just did my Daughter's room with a hand-done border to compliment her bedding... really need a picture. :)

10) I made a tiered wedding cake for my friend.. once and only once. It was white with red roses. Hmmmm, wonder where that couple is today!?! Need to go try a Facebook search; be right back.... okay, back. Found the husband, but not the wife. Hmmmm.

11) I really enjoy making custom invitations, holiday cards and announcements. I could lose hours at the computer doing it.

12) I do want to learn how to make a quilt one day. Not that I want to be quilting queen, but learn enough to make this quilt idea I've had in my head for a long, long time.

13) As an adult I've thought, occasionally, about taking piano lessons again.


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