Monday, December 20, 2010
Wow. I'm behind on my Reverb10. I'll be playing quick catch-up today... Still thoughtful. Just short. :)
Prompt: Beyond avoidance. What should you have done this year but didn't because you were too scared, worried, unsure, busy or otherwise deterred from doing? (Bonus: Will you do it?)
After registering, I decided not to do the full marathon. Though I really hated to make it, it was the best choice for me. So often we come off a race and feel like we are invincible! And, yeah, we are, but to a point. When you have this *high* you just want to look toward the next bigger, badder, longer, harder goal. Not always the smartest move to for your mind and body.
In short, I really began to feel like I'm just not ready. Truly, there is no race to do a full marathon. there is nothing riding on my completion of it, and truthfully doing a full marathon is not the same as running the full marathon in an Ironman. Couple all that with the fact that I just really need to improve my fundamental running before going longer, harder and more challenging. I owe it to myself to be responsible to my mind and body. Mentally backing off took away a lot of pressure and made it better for me to focus on running and doing the half is definitely easier on my body in its stressed condition right now.
Will I do it? Heck yeah! Just not sure when. :)
Prompt: Healing. What healed you this year? Was it sudden, or a drip-by-drip evolution? How would you like to be healed in 2011?
Nothing has completely healed me. I'm a constant work in process. I have taken in a lot of information about how to heal yourself, forgive, being open and present to the life you lead and it's been good. In 2011, if I can continue doing this kind of thing, healing will follow..
I've purchased a book as a gift to myself called Awakening by Mark Nepo. It's a collection of short daily essays and poems that are meant for you to reflect upon. A daily book, of sorts. It's my hope it will open me up further to appreciate life (although I appreciate it it quite a bit now -- I'm a huge fan of breathing!) And truly a little spiritual enrichment can't do anything but help a person survive today's world.
In 2011 I am committing to seeing this book through the entire year, reading and reflecting upon it.
Prompt: Try. What do you want to try next year? Is there something you wanted to try in 2010? What happened when you did / didn't go for it?
I never did do my century ride in 2010. I didn't really mourn the loss of not crossing it off my list because, well, it was freakin' hot this Summer. Frankly when the opportunity came up for the 100 mile ride and then was something else was offered, I didn't choose the ride.
Just because there's a goal or something on your list, doesn't mean it's a race to get them all done. It's YOUR list, done in YOUR own time. These is no sense in rushing through and accomplishing things just to cross them out. It's not always about the actual completion of the goal, but also the path you take to get there; the lessons you learn about yourself through the ups and downs. Just rushing through is not going to maximize or enrich your experience.
So 2011 will be the year for my century ride... but add 12 miles and do it following a 2.4 mile swim. I'll get that century in by way of the Redman Full Aquabike. :)