Showing posts from February, 2015

Habits - The Good, The Bad, The Forgotten

Improving on everything comes down to changing habits.  Good habits can slide off from time-to-time, but when you want to make a change the good habit must follow.

I find, sometimes, it's easy just to make the whole change in one fell swoop, sometimes it's in stages.

Right now I'm doing it in stages.

21 days to form, or return to, a good habit. Good habits take practice.  I try to remember it's only tough in the beginning... then it gets easier as the habit becomes permanent.

I started back training (lifting) with "Big Fred"  (BF). BF knows my history -- I trained with him prior to and immediately following my RNY surgery. That's been going well, now that we got a schedule down.  He kicks my butt twice a week and has provided me 3 other workouts I can do on my own at least 1 other day a week.  My swimming will take care of my cardio, along with time walking the track during Cassie's swim practice.

I saw a new Podiatrist this week and I am…

The Truth About the People You Can't Forgive

From  "In a special interview, Father Richard Rohr, founder of the Center for Action and Contemplation shares a few crucial, comforting insights about the people who have hurt us in the past. As told to Mamie Healey..."   The Truth About the People You Can't Forgive

1. The People You Can't Forgive Might Not Be Forgiven Today
"Forgiveness is a decision, but making that decision doesn't override the emotional residue that often takes much longer to release. That feeling of wanting revenge or wanting to assert your rightness or your victimhood—depending on the depth of your wounding—can take days, weeks, months and even years to dissipate. On certain days, when you're in a down mood, your psyche will want to grab onto that hurt. You have to go through that necessary period of feeling half dead, half angry, half in denial—this is the liminal space in which we grow for some reason.

T.S. Eliot once wrote, 'Wait without hope / For hope…

Living Your Truth. Owning Your Story.

Yep... things are changing here in this blogspace.  My journey to completing my Ironman is going to take way more than just training hours over the next 22 months.  My blog is going to be my way of working through the obstacles ahead. From here on out, I'm writing for me, for others with similar experiences. 

So, in the name of being completely honest and owning my story, one of the things that completely turned my world upside down was the open admission of some things that happened in my childhood.

As a teenager,  I was molested on several occasions -- by someone I knew.  Someone I trusted.

I can hardly believe I typed it. Whew.

This is my story.  My truth. There is no shame in it.  I was a victim them, but not now.  I share it not for a reader to feel pity, but in the hopes that maybe this story and my forthcoming journey, will help someone else.

With that said, it doesn't take rocket science to understand, now, why I have  had such struggles with weight and feeling ins…

Where Do I Re-start???

I don't even know where to re-start.  Ironman Florida came and went with it's bittersweet story.  It's taken me a while to even want to think about blogging or training, though the goal is still in the back of my mind. Alright.  Maybe not so much the back, but in my mind nonetheless. 

I've started my race report a number of times, but really, there isn't much to say.  Plagued with injury since the March 2014, in one way or another, kept me from really digging in on my running -- and trust me when I say I wanted to run.  I was feeling, dare I say, *good* when I ran.  I wanted to do more and get stronger, I was seeing progress.  By the time November 1st came, the farthest I had run was 10 miles and I couldn't walk for 3 days after. :(

Plantar Fascitis, a torn tendon and Achilles Tendonitis all kept me down.  I got to the point where I was only swimming and aqua jogging for periods of time.  Leading up to IMFL I was not even cycling, in an effort to let my Achil…